Closing Off Freshman Year
Blog Entry: Closing Off Freshman Year
Blog Entry: Closing Off Freshman Year
Posted by: Chibi_Sorceress
Posted: June 14, 2009, 7:41:46 AM
Mood: Deppressed, Angry, Confused
Currently: Writing my feelings out
Listening To: Silence
Posted: June 14, 2009, 7:41:46 AM
Mood: Deppressed, Angry, Confused
Currently: Writing my feelings out
Listening To: Silence
Since I am almost done my first year of highschool, I would like to list the events of this traumatic year...
September-November 2008- I was introduced to some of my closest friends, Kami (Annoyedgirl on here), Keri, Ayomi, Emily, Xanlon, Ponzi and Luna. (Most of them Nicknames) They have become my biggest support system and they are truly amazing! :D
October 30-November 1 2008- 3 Nights of Sugar, Insanity and Nonstop partying. Some of the best times of my life.
Janurary 24 2009- I got my new puppy, Snapple.
April 23 2009- Happy Birthday William Shakespeare! And I went on my only field trip to see West Side Story.
May 23 2009- I went to my first Anime Convention. Many memories I will never forget.
June 1- 2009- I moved, and one of the best ones ever. :)
Right now- If I were too keep up my work, I will be on Honor roll this semester.
January 11-12 2009- We had to put down my dog, Lucky, who I had since I was six. She will be missed.
End of first Semester- Worst day of my life. I fall down a flight of stairs, which injures my back, Snapple was speculated for a deadly illness (It was just worms, thank god) and I failed math, all in one day.
Late May 2009- One of my friends was sexually assaulted. At least she had physical proof to punish the bastard.
May 8 2009-Right now- It's an overflow of drama. Someone cheating on others with men old enough to be their older brother, one friend being attacked, one who is boarderlined suicidal and the first person meantioned thinking I'm stupid enough to think I don't know she is hiding all this behind me.
The thing that is draining my energy due to trust issues, anger, depression, sadness and so many more mixed feelings is my 'friend'. Recently, they have shed their true colours all over me. I thought that they were just so amazing, and what's been going on just results that they are not what I thought they were.
I was the last person to know about them cheating on their partner of 8 months, and when I confronted them, they admetted to blabbing to every other friend about their affair... I was left out in the dust. I was the one they wanted to take to their choir outing to make up for a fight, and bringing along that snake of a new partner along too, and completly ignoring me. I keep breaking my back for them, because I still want to be their friend, but they just don't meet half way.
As for this, I know who they really are, they can twist me around and try to convince me that they still care, only to be stabbed in the back again, and again, and again. They are why I am so bitter, the reason why I don't want to be in a relationship, the reason I have trouble trusting again.
So, now, I will do myself a favour and thake the knife out of my back that's been stuck for all of Freshmen year, because I'm finished with all of these games.
THE GOOD
September-November 2008- I was introduced to some of my closest friends, Kami (Annoyedgirl on here), Keri, Ayomi, Emily, Xanlon, Ponzi and Luna. (Most of them Nicknames) They have become my biggest support system and they are truly amazing! :D
October 30-November 1 2008- 3 Nights of Sugar, Insanity and Nonstop partying. Some of the best times of my life.
Janurary 24 2009- I got my new puppy, Snapple.
April 23 2009- Happy Birthday William Shakespeare! And I went on my only field trip to see West Side Story.
May 23 2009- I went to my first Anime Convention. Many memories I will never forget.
June 1- 2009- I moved, and one of the best ones ever. :)
Right now- If I were too keep up my work, I will be on Honor roll this semester.
THE BAD
January 11-12 2009- We had to put down my dog, Lucky, who I had since I was six. She will be missed.
End of first Semester- Worst day of my life. I fall down a flight of stairs, which injures my back, Snapple was speculated for a deadly illness (It was just worms, thank god) and I failed math, all in one day.
Late May 2009- One of my friends was sexually assaulted. At least she had physical proof to punish the bastard.
May 8 2009-Right now- It's an overflow of drama. Someone cheating on others with men old enough to be their older brother, one friend being attacked, one who is boarderlined suicidal and the first person meantioned thinking I'm stupid enough to think I don't know she is hiding all this behind me.
DETERIORTION
The thing that is draining my energy due to trust issues, anger, depression, sadness and so many more mixed feelings is my 'friend'. Recently, they have shed their true colours all over me. I thought that they were just so amazing, and what's been going on just results that they are not what I thought they were.
I was the last person to know about them cheating on their partner of 8 months, and when I confronted them, they admetted to blabbing to every other friend about their affair... I was left out in the dust. I was the one they wanted to take to their choir outing to make up for a fight, and bringing along that snake of a new partner along too, and completly ignoring me. I keep breaking my back for them, because I still want to be their friend, but they just don't meet half way.
As for this, I know who they really are, they can twist me around and try to convince me that they still care, only to be stabbed in the back again, and again, and again. They are why I am so bitter, the reason why I don't want to be in a relationship, the reason I have trouble trusting again.
So, now, I will do myself a favour and thake the knife out of my back that's been stuck for all of Freshmen year, because I'm finished with all of these games.