Happy nearing the month of christmas

you know what i hate? pretending. it sucks..
pretending to be happy is merely betraying yourself, i do it anyway even though i'm well aware i shouldn't
pretending to be stupid is another betrayal of the self, and i do that to, although i know well that i shouldn't
Pretending to someone that your happy and smiling is also something you should probably not do.
pretending to be something that your not, making up stories
all traits of my dearly beloved father, whom i hope to never see again once i reach the age of eighteen.

Now.. pretending to know things that you don't by deluding other people into thinking you know what your talking about, so that they'll tell you the answer by accident because they think you know all about it when you really don't, works, but you shouldn't do it kids :/
kids lol
i'll never have kids lmao XD
That would be like God torturing some innocent children
and anyways you need to ..yeah
so i suppose
what should i talk about today..
oh it got really cold and actually SNOWED .. HERE... IN KEY PENINSULA... IN LONGBRANCH... what the F*#K?
its down to 20 and the nights are colder then anything
but honestly the worst part is trying to fall asleep
i cant do it
.. lol i've been watching comedians alot today and i wish i could be 1 XD
you know my whole life all everyone ever does is step on me >.O
not.. literally..
but you know
... srlsy why me ppl?
oh well
hey thats ok now because i got used to being called names online ya know
i'm actually disapointed that they've got nothing better then "ur mom" now
but I am regally dissapointed in my freind
S
to making me and my sisters life hell for five years S
K
to being a real freind
but not always the most reliable one
to C
to being my supportive sister
To M
to being the most loyal 11 year old i met, and a good freind
To S
for not knowing how to clean worth sh*t but all the same at least learning how to be a modest sensible dude, bro
To J.R
to being a strict, kinda angry at times, but awesome mom
To L
my phsycotic brainwashed aunt.. for being a crazy mooch
to P
My phycotic brainwashing father, for being an angry, threatening person, and a lying asshole who scarred me for life, to never seeing you again soon
To aunt D
My awesome aunt, not my ex freinds ex boyfreind, your just so.. cool and aunty
to Uncle D
for a name that doesnt really even start with D, who could do an awesome donald duck impression, and is an awesome uncle if the only one i ever see
To uncle J
who isnt really my uncle or related to me in any way, but all the same closest i ever had to a father figure
finally
To you J
for being the first person to ever stand up for me in a little way, my best freind, and my one and only, but who has more to learn about me then he thinks.
happy thanksgiving almost XD
I may be headed to my aunts tommorow but looking at the weather.. then looking at my mom.. who is.. terribly afraid of driving in the snow
.. i'm thinkin chances are slim..
but if i do
EARLY HAPPY THANKSGIVING
... im not on youtube no moar >.>
people are always emailing me
"i'm doing harvest moon interviews, i'm not ripping u off.. i just liked your idea"
well you knwo people i put lotsa effort into those and i wish i didnt have to give them up
but i'm actually really flattered by these emails.. like me? what .. i did an idea worth... copying?.. XD
i wish them all the luck
i hope some million lightyears away i'll get youtube to upload stuff from powerpoint on this computer.. crappy as it is i'm stuck with it for quite a bit longer and hey
better then nothing
actually.. i'm jealous of u J
fk u havin a 1,000 dollar computer D:
.......
mine was 300 >.>
although its my fault for picking it
still my mom wouldnt of got it if it was expensive XD

its used i think
do i really squeek?
really?
my sister said that.... .. .and what is with people walking in here andi 'm sitting or lying somewhere and i move and all the sudden they go
"ANNNA WHOLEY MOTHER OF CHICKEN NUGGET BUTTS I DIDNT SEE U THAR!!!"
.. well i wasnt exactly hiding was i?
.... am i a ninja >:D
lol nah to uncoordinated XD
almost forgot
to navi
for teaching me why suck is censored in mabinogi.
and showing me the true meaning of .. extreme grouchiness
:P
one day to the world, i will look up and say "dear everyone here, please go away" and the world will look down nod and reply "why whats the matter? dont you enjoy doing things our way?" and i will stand up, look the world in the eye, and say to it straight up "I cannot tell a lie, i know i am wrong, a strange little creep, short for my age, i dont wear makeup till i sleep, i refuse to obey, and so world, I've something to tell you today... its not my job to impress you so please friend take peace,I'm going away"
"i'm seeking refuge, I must find a new place to be, somewhere where, i can be me"
and if the world of envy, of hate, and of lies, does not like me so, and i bring tears to its eyes, then the world will not mind, it wont be sad at all, when i run far away, and find a new place to have a ball.
and no while it is not of heaven i speak
for i made a promise, one i intend to keep
I will never end my own life, for selfish it be, no matter how much i hate thee, because if i did that it would be kinda selfish
considering the good i might someday, or at least that i wish.
even if somedays i want to drop dead, because people, they scream and some quietly, infiltrate my head.
I'll never never ever, no matter what you say
give up on this blessing of life, that came floating my way.
I'm going to live, go anywhere damnit, i dont care if they hate me , or call me a maggot
i don't give a sh*t if they hurt me so, because .. i know just where i'll go.
-AK
run far away
now i dunno where.. that caem from but good night every1 lol