For you Backstabbers

); I'm sorry! ;__; I've had my problems with friends, and I thought I'd never have those kind of problems. Friends can be an AMAZING source of love and support, but they can also hurt and scar you.

Off of what I've read, you might have known these people for a long time and it's so astonishing that they've done this to you now. The guy who started hanging out with the guy he hates might have wanted to make up with him or something, but it's no excuse for leaving you behind. ]; He might be trying to desperately repair a bad relationship and tell you the details later though.

And as for the band thing...;___; Something like that has happened to me recently. I tear up just thinking about it. My friend said his mom would pick me up for this huge event where all my friends are coming, but he wouldn't tell me what time he's picking me up or what time the actual event is. When it's about 2 hours after the event, I call him asking why he hadn't picked me up and he said, "We can't pick you up." And i say, "Okay, I'll just ask Audrey to pick me up." And he said, "No, Audrey's already hear with us. It's already too late to pick you up." And I said Ok and turned off the phone and started crying, because I felt so left behind, and I had to CALL HIM to know about it. I was 2 hours left behind...And I guess you probably felt the same way when your friends said "Sorry, we forgot to tell you" after the concert was over. No warnings, no real feelings behind the word "sorry...." It's like the only worth I have is to be there for my friends and they're never there for me. I have to start the conversation, not them. I have to pull up the mood, not them. And when it's me alone, they almost seen to overlook me, like I wasn't there at all.

**** MY FRIENDS SOMETIMES. I have myself. But stuff like this will happen all the time. You and I have let down our friends before. They might have felt the same thing we feel right now. So that makes it equal. Whenever you're dealing with humans, problems like this will always occur, but I won't let it ruin my social stability. I let my friends know when I'm super sad and if they're the cause of it. I'll tell them, "I felt left behind." without feeling any shame of selfishness because I'm allowed to tell them how I feel. No matter how much I question them even being my real friends...when have I ever had a REAL friend? No one can ever be truly there for me. Only I can, so I can't expect other people to fulfill my expectations always.

Oh wow, I just went into a rant about myself while trying to console you. Sorry. ;________; But I think I was trying to tell you how to get over the drama of feeling betrayed and left behind. Just tell them how you feel, and if they don't seem to want to understand, then they're not your real friends. You want friends that will tell you their problems and listen to your problems in return.