Door wich I dear not open

This pic rep's all of mi pain & anguish and sorrow this door is a door in my mined that I wish to never open this door is like mi anti mined so to say when I get upset, sad, or angry this door in mi mined is beeing pounded on in some caces the demonic beast almost gets out I feel that this beast became in mi mined because of all the anger, and sadnes that has built up insie along with this door fortionatly this door has and never will be opend.