Two halves dont make a whole

ok first of all if you ant read the fancy writing hers what it reads<br />
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Torn between two lives<br />
both of which i hate<br />
Neither one is loved<br />
so few choices for me to take<br />
<br />
I fear my nightmears<br />
they are so true<br />
i could never become<br />
the man you wanted me to<br />
<br />
As hard as I tried <br />
to grow up fast<br />
there are immaturities<br />
that will always last<br />
<br />
I always wanted<br />
you to be proud of me<br />
but i could never live<br />
the life of luxery<br />
<br />
You did all you could<br />
tried to teach me your self<br />
and today i know<br />
i didnt earn your wealth<br />
<br />
Ever scince MantisWing<br />
ive only caused pain<br />
So father please accept me<br />
despite those ive slain<br />
<br />
your soul your love and<br />
your life I stole<br />
and now I begin to relize<br />
Two halves dont make a whole<br />
<br />
-Dorrian Eugene Weevil Underwood<br />
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now then this is based on latter chapters in my story Weevils life when he feels like hes becoming the person his father was but he also at the same time while he fears that feels he has something to prove to him (his self and his father) the thing on osperys neck is a bruise because ospery when he was little had a more abusive father then he was to weevil and thats like a bruise where his father (weevils grandfater) neraly choked ospery to death.