* Someone STOP Me * (Gothic)

My soul isn't ready for deliverance<br />
Even our precious memories don't help<br />
Don't let me fly out of that window<br />
Somehow, I am my very own mortal enemy<br />
Beni mahveden kendimden baskasi degil ki<br />
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Someone stop me. <br />
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"Then I met Kaoru. Without knowing how vulnerable he was inside, he had always protected me from the dark side of my soul. Whenever I looked into his empty eyes; agony, solitude and pain dissolved into a black hole. Whenever I touched his pale skin, I felt warmness again. I was tired, yet more mature; he was there, shining like the light at the end of a tunnel. Gazing at his face was like seeing into a mirror, he was like a more masculine, more closed version of mine; we often came one. We hold on to each other when we’re broken, which happens very often. I can’t help my tears flow through my face, on the other hand, he weeps inside. My heart falls apart when I see him in misery, his eyes staring at emptiness. All my life, I witnessed people turning away from me, but he's always by my side. I used to struggle in my bed at night, struggle the cold and loneliness. Now, I pray for nightfall, to fall asleep in his arms, to smell his slim, fragrant neck. I can't understand how time passes by when I'm together with him, i could spend my whole life sitting near him, by the seaside. He eases my pain. He can touch my spirit. I was dead for a long time, he's the one who let me breath again."<br />
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Inking pen + Watercolor Pencils<br />
Watanabe Kara is copyright me.<br />
All fanarts are welcome.