*Shades of black white and gray*

*I see in shades of black white and gray….. Where life would be great and the shadows of what I want would not haunt me. Every one around me seems to have all I want, but all I have is nothing….. Most people say that love is hard and that it hurt’s more than a thousand knives! but when your alone and wish some one was there to hold you in there arms, it is the most hollow feeling.… It is like your soul has left you and is wandering the dark in search of a light, but will never find it. This is the way I feel every night…. Wandering the dark corners of the room, hopping to find that some day I might be loved, and then I return to my body cold and alone. Many people say that “it is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all” I my self have never loved and lost but to never know passion, hope, love from another? Tell me now which is the worse. For I might spare my self the morning for the rest of eternity.*<br />
don't really know what possessed me to write this......