I JUST WANT TO DIE!

Your defenses were on high
Your walls built deep inside
Yeah I'm a selfish bastard
But at least I'm not alone
My intentions never change
What I wanted stays the same
And I know what I should do
It's time to set myself on fire
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I
Your reflection I've erased
Like a thousand burned out yesterdays
Believe me when I say goodbye forever
Is for good
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I
(A photograph of you and I)
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I
A photograph of you and I
A photograph of you and I... In love...

'Was It A Dream' by 30 Seconds to Mars

That song is the song I'd sing if Matt and I ever broke up...Guess what...We did...Stupid fracking @$$ reasons too. I don't want to talk about it. I will say that because of him and the reasons...I am afraid to pick up a pencil and blank sheet of paper...Its gonna be a while until I draw again. Yes I realized I fracked up on the lyrics on the picture...Forgive me...

Right now comes to the conclusion of the story I am writing about on Lunar's life...When Reno left her she went back home...She killed Xinaku so she wouldn't come back to life and she also killed the triplets that Xinaku gave birth on Tuesday, {7/3/7} she thought Xal didn't need the burden of taking care of three kids by himself. Then she got a pistol and shot herself with her last words: "...I Love You...Reno...I Love..." Then she dies and Shadow comes to her side to be surprised. End of story...Book 1 is done...Working on Book 2...{Yes Sarah...I still keep Shadow for reason}

Shocking is it not? That's what her right eye looks like...Scars from her very first son Vicktor, when he was possessed during the war and they were against each other...A poison was left on Lunar's face, hence the lil markings that look like scales...The squiggly lines around her eye is what happens when her eye isn't covered up...It creates sonic booms and an eerie noise that makes you bleed out of every opening until you die. It travels fracking far.

Anyways...Because of our breakup I was devastated and I went to my grandparents house...Instead of getting the gun I got a huge fracking knife and cut my wrists and chest...I bled but I'm fine...I just have them covered up and I think my mom...When she gets me alone is gonna ask me to show her...When that happens I won't be here anymore...I'll be in a Insane Asylum. I contacted my friend Ron who got scared shootless about me, he said when I texted him he hovered over his cell waiting for my replies. We talked over the phone until 3AM we had to hang up because he had to go to work and he needed his rest. But because of him I feel better...He once again saved my life...Same with my friend Kurssy, she's been there for me and I am more happy...Yet I bet when school starts she's gonna slap me.

RIP: Lunar Shinruka...Xinaku Shinruka...Triplets that had no names. You will be missed and loved.

{PS} For those who are still drawing a picture of Lunar for a request I asked...Plz keep drawing them. Except for you Sarah...Don't do the request I asked for LunarxReno or LunarxXal...I'll think of another...Eventually...