Chapter 1 - Kate

To Kate



Since the day I saw you,

Just talking to them,

I felt my heart skip a bear,

Yet I wondered who you were,

And if I was ever going to learn,

What I could do to make you mine.

And yet to this day,

I wonder if,

If can finally say your mine,

And we are finally,

More than just friends,

But it seems that can never be,

So its time,

For me to let go.

But it seems,

A part of me wants to you,

My heart wants just to have you,

But a part of me,

Just say to say goodbye,

But I don't want to,

Just let you go,

Because seeing you,

With someone else,

Just destroys me inside.

I hate not being with you,

Yet it seems I cannot,

Do to the reasons,

I do not yet understand,

But I still wish,

That you could just be mine,

But I doubt you can,

So I think,

Once more that I,

Am not good enough,

Yet now as I watch you,

It brings a smile to my face,

Because seeing you happy,

Is all I need.

To truly make myself smile.

But I want you,

Yet I will never,

Truly be happy,

As long as I cant have you,

But I will never show,

How I feel,

In fear of hurting you.

I would never hurt you,

But it seems that,

Other do not understand,

Why I truly love you,

But that does not bother me,

Because I know in my heart,

That you were my one love,

And that you shall be forever more.

But my love,

It seems now,

I am fighting,

An endless war,

That I can not win.

So I think to myself,

As I sit and think,

When will you be mine?

Do I really have to let you go?

Why can't I win?

You hearty this time,

It seems,

That's not matter what I do,

Or what I say,

I can not make you a part of my life,

So I may as well,

Remain silent again,

As I was before,

Because it seems,

Telling you I love you,

Only brings more pain,

If only the pain would go away,

But I know it cant and wont,

So I wish that it would,

Just end it now,

But as long as I love you,

It will forever stay.

I try and get away,

From the pain by seeing you,

But it only brings back memories,

Of the sadness of seeing you,

With all of the other,

Yet I force myself,

To be happy,

Not for me but for you.

You to me,

Are more valuable then diamonds,

Brighter then the stars,

Hotter then the sun,

More enchanting then the wind,

Yet I dare not say these things,

To you or anyone,

Because it will only make,

Me feel the pain again,

But I still love you,

And I always have,

Yet I wonder why,

As do s few people,

But I will not say,

Since I will not win,

Your heart.

Watching you,

Only brings a tear to my eyes,

But I dare not let it drop,

Because I hate for you to see me cry.

I've been lost in hell,

Then I met you,

And from that day,

I counted the hours until,

I could see you smile.

And when I do see you smile,

It makes me love you more,

No matter what you do,

Or what you say,

I always love you,

Nothing can break,

My love for you,

Yet it seems you do not

Feel the same way about me,

So I wonder why,

I can not win,

And why do I even try,

Yet for those I may not have the answers,

Yet I know one answer,

Is because I love you,

And I will never forget that,

You bring me to do,

What I need to do,

To keep me happy,

And bring a smile onto my face.

But as long as I know,

That you can't be mine,

I won't even say,

How I really feel,

Anymore to you,

Howe I really feel,

Nor to anyone else,

So ill always feel inside,

The love for you,

Like I always have,

And I always will,

But I wonder why,

You won't be mine,

And why I can't say,

What I wish to say.

If only my heart could speak for me,

Then you would truly know,

How I feel about you,

But I doubt,

You would even care,

So I will just wait for the day,

That you will be mine,

And not speak anymore,

Of feelings of love,

Nor joy,

But please don't forget the fact,

That you are my love,

From where I draw,

Everything I need to survive.

When I need someone to talk to,

You are always there,

And that alone makes me smile.

Because I wonder why,

You're so kind to me,

It often upsets me,

When it brings back the thoughts,

Of how much I love you.

I've tried to get rid of these thoughts,

But it seems I can't, so in the end,

I can not win.

But I will always try,

In hope that one day soon,

I will win your heart.

But still you will never fully know,

Why I do what I do,

Or why I say what I say,

But you will always know,

This one thing,

I love you.

But know I know,

This is not enough for you,

Though I wish it was,

And so I pray,

That one day soon,

You will love me to,

But I know you won't.

It seems so pointless to try,

But I will not fail,

I have come too far,

To give up now,

And my love for you,

Has been what's driven me,

Only strengthened by the hope,

That you will one day love me.

But you won't,

And for once,

I hope I am,

Wrong because,

I learned now,

That it feels.

Like I can not live,

Without you.

But I will have to learn,

One way or another,

That you will never be mine.

Yet I still wish,

That you would just,

Give me a shot,

To win your heart.

I feel that now,

I am not good enough,

Nor will I ever be,

Good enough for you,

But my love for you,

Subdues these thoughts.

I sit around,

And wonder why,

You will never be mine,

You are my angel

You can not hide this from me,

If only my love,

Could show me what I need to do,

To win your heart,

I would do it faithfully,

Because all I want,

Is to hold you in my arms,

And hear you say I love you.

But it seems,

There are just to many people,

That will never agree,

Though I do not know why,

I will fight forever if I have to,

To prove to you just how much,

I really love you.

You know I love you,

Yet you seem to ignore it.

So I feel I will not win,

This war with my heart,

I sit around with you,

And think to myself,

Just when will she,

Finally be mine.

So I think,

This will never happen,

I realize now,

I can't win,

And I will have to face the fact,

That no matter how hard I try,

That you will never be mine.

I will always be there for you,

With loving care,

Still in hope that,

In one day,

You will be mine.



With Love

Joe

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