Chapter 1 - Untitled

Desperate for love

We start selling out

To every dream our mind can dish out

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We know it won't work

We know there not real

But we can't cope with how we feel

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We all want to be loved

When there's no one around

To show that we care, that we want to be found

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You're all alone

But you don't want me

Can't blame you though, I couldn't see

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That I loved you

More so than I thought

I loved you the more that we fought

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It showed that you cared

That you really loved me

Why did I think that we couldn't be?

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I don't know myself

I didn't know you more

But I loved you down to the core

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You were my fire

You were my world

More like my angel than my girl

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You were my heart

You were my soul

You were the piece that made me whole

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Your thoughts of me are drifting away

My thoughts of you couldn't be more

Should have chased you till my feet were sore

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You could say I wimped out

No one to blame but me

Can't believe I will go down in history

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As the guy who lost you

Never even tried

Just sat around felt bad and cried

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That I couldn't take the pain

Even if it was true

I should have stood and fought for you

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But it's all over

Feel the mourn everyday

There isn't really more that I can say

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Just want to tell you I'm sorry

For ruining what we had

For yelling and getting mad

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Don't know what you saw in me

I can't do anything right

Kept getting mad and starting fights

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Love was the entrance

Death is now the escape

My mistake was leaving it up to fate

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Not surprisingly true

You just moved on

Your memories of me are gone

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I just hope you're happy

That's all I truly want

In my mind thoughts of you will haunt

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Happiness and joy

Are right beyond what you see

But there's nothing there for me

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Lost in the dark

Stuck in the snow

There's nowhere I can go

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You told me stop

And so I did

But you kept starting so I hid

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It's hard to follow your advice

When you don't follow your own

Dwelling on dreams that have already flown

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Didn't want to fight

Didn't want to make you bleed

There's a hole in my heart of what I need

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To see your face

To hold your hand

To give you a golden band

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But it'll never happen

It's only now a dream

A side effect of being mean

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For being cruel

To the one I love

For shooting down my only dove

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You probably think I'm mad

You think this can't be real

But this is how I really feel

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I don't deserve another try

To finish our dance

I wasted every single chance

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It's probably a good thing

That you truly hate me

So I can disappear completely

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Open the door to the dark

Into the shadows I'm hurled

Saying goodbye to this world

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This place of light

That blinded me from what's true

I could have really been with you

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It was a matter of time

But the time has run out

Covered my ears to block you out

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But the thoughts keep coming

Don't think they'll ever stop

Keep filling my mind till it pops

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The nature of love

Is more disturbed then my mind

Forced to eat dust, it left me behind

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My greatest strength

Was turned against me

Once a friend now an enemy

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A fool takes a dream

And turns it to a nightmare

Life and love are never fair

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Reality is just as bad

It fuels around rules

Breaking a heart takes no tools

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All you need is a choice

To find your voice

And use it to stop any rejoice

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To destroy a girl

To crush her soul

To rip up why she loved you at all

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Things just never go right

No matter what I try or do

Even if I started talking to you

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It would end in a fight

Like it has before

Another thorn from the one I adore

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It sucks to be me

To write these crappy rhymes

But it's the only way to past the times

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Got nothing else to do

But sit and mourn over you

Just can't move on, I'm so blue

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Sit at my desk and write

The words of a darkened heart

My life's been completely torn apart

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It doesn't make sense

This doesn't feel right

Am I really doomed to eternal night?

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Or is there truly someone

Someone meant for me

Who can put up with my stupidity

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For now the only comfort I get

Is from my friends

They won't let me put it all to an end

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The end to a life

That doesn't even exist

That once over wont be missed

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You all think I'm ok

But I'm in a nightmare

Don't know why you even cared

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Not like I have a life

Not like I was kind at all

Not like I didn't deserve to fall

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Finally made a choice

But the choice was wrong

It was hopeless all along

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At first I was sad

Then the anger set in

My hatred soon begins

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All the feelings inside

Were set free

I've got no reason at all to be

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Tainted hearts

Fall apart

Love is doomed from the start

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A drunken man

Drunk with rage

Time to come down from the stage

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Hang up my guitar

Turn off the mic

Accept that there's no one who likes

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A depressed man

A tainted boy

Who plays with hearts like a toy

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Crushes them in his hand

Then eats them whole

Wicked feelings take there toll

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Mind gets hazed

Body begins to quake

Have to free all the hearts I take

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I'm a reaper of hearts

A shadow of the soul

I'm no better then a mole

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Dug and clawed to

Scratch my way to you

To say I'm sorry but were through

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Why did I say yes

Should have said no

To the first words you spoke

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Heart shut off

Became headstrong

Thought I was right but I was wrong

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Repeating the rhymes

I've already said

Need to actually go to bed

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Instead of staying up

And thinking of who

I want to be with it's you

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Doesn't make any dif

You've already made up your mind

Just had to say it one last time

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Before I disappear

From your life and mind

Ill stop writing about you in my rhymes

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Then I guess I'm done

The end of a poet's fun

Cause you're my only inspiration

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Gotta thank all my friends

For helping get this far

I just wish upon a star

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That I could have been

More like you all

You all catch me when I fall

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To start it off

Neera you're like a sis

You've shown me that love can be a bliss

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Bunnie your kind

You've got a cottony behind

But your hugs get me through rough times

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Bobin the words you share

Show that you really care

You open my mind, you show other things are there

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Cannon my friend

You've always held out your hand

To slap some sense into me again

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Leafer of the north

Always the listener

Brought a connection from me to her

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Amber was new in my town

Gave me a smile from a frown

Talked to me when I am down

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Last but not least there's Splixx

Gave her my heart to fix

Shows me the truths of love from the tricks

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My weakness shows

As our friendship grows

I love them all I don't care who knows

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There my only strength

They pulled out the knife

There the only light in my life

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I know it's sad

I know it's true

I know even after all that's happened

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I still love you

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