Chapter 1 - how i've felt. (friends)

i've had it all
my friends...
i smile.
 
(brittany lynne george)
 
i ruined that, you see
i was so naive
i really believed we'd
be friends forever.
 
no, you turned your back on me
wow, i guess i just loved you
you were my sister
i went to you for everything
 
we talked on the phone for hours
it seemed, you'd always be there
but no, you left me
i needed you and you left me
 
i was so hopeful
i waited for you, and i waited
i wished you come for me
you knew i needed you
 
i began to get frantic
i called you, and called you
only to find that you're close
but yet, you wouldn't come
 
when you needed someone
i was always there, your girl
your bestie, your chlobug
i knew everything
 
i was there for all the birthdays
cried the tears with you
spend the night, party!
the countless girls' days
 
from pre-k on up
you were my best friend
and now, because of you
i can't call anyone that
 
you just about killed me
things couldn't be worse
i'd lost the closest things to me
i'd lost you
 
i was already beaten
i was bruised and down
i was on the edge
you pushed me off
 
it's ok now, i've grown up
not too much, i admit
but i can see clearly now
i see right thru you
 
you never cared
you were never my sister
and yet, i can't help it
i still,
and i will,
forevermore,
miss you.
 
(reba june vann)
 
this was all my doing
you were my sister
and i traded you in
for him?, but why?
 
he never treated me right
i made such a mistake
one day, i pray for acceptance
one day, i pray for friendship
 
i miss you too
i want my old life back
i want my seventh grade year
i want my reba
 
i want our inside jokes
i want to fall asleep
on the phone
at one o'clock
in the morning
 
i want to listen to that song
you know, our song?
'my sister'?
and not cry everytime
 
i want to live my life
i don't want to regret it
i don't want to go out
friendless and alone
 
i want a sister
i had a real one
i had my amber
but she left too
 
just like brittany
she abadoned me
i was young
i was so little
she never thought
she just ran
i want a sister
i want my sister
 
i want you back
i want to say i'm so sorry
i just don't know
 

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