Someday soon.
Blog Entry: Someday soon.
Blog Entry: Someday soon.
Posted by: HalfoftheMoon
Posted: April 14, 2009, 3:12:35 PM
Mood: suicidal
Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing
Currently: crying
Listening To: Maybe I'm Just Tired - As Tall as Lions
Posted: April 14, 2009, 3:12:35 PM
Mood: suicidal
Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing
Currently: crying
Listening To: Maybe I'm Just Tired - As Tall as Lions
TiredAche (4:02:28 PM): I've..been thinking...ever since the first time we kissed..
TiredAche (4:02:36 PM): and thinking thuroughly
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:02:40 PM): *bites down on lip nervously*..
TiredAche (4:02:40 PM): about things.
TiredAche (4:02:48 PM): I...
TiredAche (4:02:53 PM): wanna be with you..
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:03:09 PM): *eyes widen a little*..............Victor.........
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:03:37 PM): ..w-wut about......Kitty?
TiredAche (4:04:07 PM): its a sacrifice I'm gunna have to make..
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:04:40 PM): S-sacrafice? ...no..no, no, Victor...I don't want you to have to sacrafice anything for me...
TiredAche (4:06:13 PM): ....answer me this question, you've heard it already, but the answers are always are indirect....
TiredAche (4:06:19 PM): I want a simple yes, or a no..
TiredAche (4:06:25 PM): and an honest one at that fact...
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:06:34 PM): Alright...*nods a few times*
TiredAche (4:07:06 PM): do you waqnt me....more than a brother, more than a friend, do you want me...?
TiredAche (4:07:10 PM): above that, need me..?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:08:11 PM): ..yes, I know I need you...*stares at your chest and thinks about if I'm totally ready to give up on Alan and start all over again...*
TiredAche (4:09:01 PM): *realises that faint look in your eyes*right...I gorgot..there's alan...
TiredAche (4:09:13 PM): *sighs gently* lizzy.....
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:09:24 PM): *snaps out of my thought and loox at you*...yes?
TiredAche (4:09:37 PM): the only thing...I can say would be....
TiredAche (4:10:19 PM): ...if you need me...as much as you claim you do....then lets hope kitty doesnt win my heart back....
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:11:27 PM): *stares down and clings to the back of yer shirt a little*........a-alright......
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:12:01 PM): To...answer your question, then...
TiredAche (4:12:20 PM): *looks over my shoulder a bit*..
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:14:13 PM): I want you...so much more than a friend..I do want you to be someone that is more than a brother to me.....*places hand on yer cheek and turns it so you're looking at me*.......*takes in a breath and lets it slowly*...I would very much like......to be with you......I want you to be mine....and nothing but that....
TiredAche (4:15:07 PM): *puts on a small smile*..
TiredAche (4:15:35 PM): leaving...kitt should be more than enough of a sign that..I'd do anything for you...
TiredAche (4:15:43 PM): but...baby steps at a time...
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:15:59 PM): I understand...completely.
TiredAche (4:16:59 PM): *gets my bass*the hardest part of holdin' on....
TiredAche (4:17:04 PM): is letting it go...
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:17:32 PM): ...*loox at you softly*...are you positive you want to do this....?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:18:31 PM): You proposed to her...
TiredAche (4:18:44 PM): ....
TiredAche (4:19:06 PM): *ducks head sofltly but holding on to my bass a bit*I-I know...
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:20:29 PM): ...I just...am wondering....*places hand on your shoulder*...if you really think that...you'll be as serious about me as you were about Kitty...and I'm not saying that it's for sure we'll take it that far, but...you did so much for her....
TiredAche (4:22:04 PM): yeha...*plucks a few strings* I did.....
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:22:37 PM): ..I just want you to really be positive you know wut you're giving up...for me...
TiredAche (4:23:22 PM): yeah...
TiredAche (4:23:39 PM): but...lizz...can we talk about these things...a bit more into detail..?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:23:59 PM): Wut do you mean?
TiredAche (4:24:46 PM): if....
TiredAche (4:24:53 PM): I...end up with you...
TiredAche (4:25:03 PM): would you...doubt on me like you did with alan..?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:25:12 PM): Doubt on you?
TiredAche (4:25:25 PM): I dont...wanna be a "summer love"...nor...any of that...
TiredAche (4:25:39 PM): yeah...think that we'd break up
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:26:42 PM): O-oh..*lowers eyes a little*...thing is, me and Alan knew we weren't going to last....I knew that'd he only be a summer dream for me...because he had already told me that he was going to leave..he just did it sooner than I thought.
....sometimes, I always think that the person I love is one day going to look at me and tell me they don't love me anymore...but I wouldn't doubt in you.
TiredAche (4:28:07 PM): ...good...*looks down softly at the strings*...hmhm..I sure do think ahead of time dont I..?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:28:31 PM): *loox to the side w/ a small smile*...believe me, I do as well..
TiredAche (4:29:15 PM): *plays the 28 tune*hmhm..I just...wanna be sure...about this..
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:29:38 PM): *listens to you*...I want you to, too...
TiredAche (4:30:45 PM): you think I dont...? Hmhm....*softly starts getting into the song*
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:31:35 PM): ...*shrugs gently and sits down next to you*
TiredAche (4:32:25 PM): *softly ends song shortly*
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:32:58 PM): *starring at your face as you do so*
TiredAche (4:33:53 PM): *softly gets hair out of my face and moves my eyes towards your direction and gives you a gentle smile* Lizz...
TiredAche (4:34:01 PM): I love you....
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:34:22 PM): *places hands on the sides of yer face softly* I love you, too..Victor.
TiredAche (4:35:10 PM): *softly holds the back of your head and gives you a good kiss on yur forhead*
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:35:49 PM): *shuts eyes and smiles gently as you do so*
TiredAche (4:37:11 PM): I'd offer a real one...*gentle smile and head held a lil high*
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:38:00 PM): *opens eyes and loox up at you* ..hmhm...someday soon. *plants a quick kiss on your chin*
TiredAche (4:38:33 PM): I had an itch you'd say that, hmhm.
TiredAche (4:02:36 PM): and thinking thuroughly
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:02:40 PM): *bites down on lip nervously*..
TiredAche (4:02:40 PM): about things.
TiredAche (4:02:48 PM): I...
TiredAche (4:02:53 PM): wanna be with you..
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:03:09 PM): *eyes widen a little*..............Victor.........
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:03:37 PM): ..w-wut about......Kitty?
TiredAche (4:04:07 PM): its a sacrifice I'm gunna have to make..
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:04:40 PM): S-sacrafice? ...no..no, no, Victor...I don't want you to have to sacrafice anything for me...
TiredAche (4:06:13 PM): ....answer me this question, you've heard it already, but the answers are always are indirect....
TiredAche (4:06:19 PM): I want a simple yes, or a no..
TiredAche (4:06:25 PM): and an honest one at that fact...
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:06:34 PM): Alright...*nods a few times*
TiredAche (4:07:06 PM): do you waqnt me....more than a brother, more than a friend, do you want me...?
TiredAche (4:07:10 PM): above that, need me..?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:08:11 PM): ..yes, I know I need you...*stares at your chest and thinks about if I'm totally ready to give up on Alan and start all over again...*
TiredAche (4:09:01 PM): *realises that faint look in your eyes*right...I gorgot..there's alan...
TiredAche (4:09:13 PM): *sighs gently* lizzy.....
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:09:24 PM): *snaps out of my thought and loox at you*...yes?
TiredAche (4:09:37 PM): the only thing...I can say would be....
TiredAche (4:10:19 PM): ...if you need me...as much as you claim you do....then lets hope kitty doesnt win my heart back....
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:11:27 PM): *stares down and clings to the back of yer shirt a little*........a-alright......
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:12:01 PM): To...answer your question, then...
TiredAche (4:12:20 PM): *looks over my shoulder a bit*..
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:14:13 PM): I want you...so much more than a friend..I do want you to be someone that is more than a brother to me.....*places hand on yer cheek and turns it so you're looking at me*.......*takes in a breath and lets it slowly*...I would very much like......to be with you......I want you to be mine....and nothing but that....
TiredAche (4:15:07 PM): *puts on a small smile*..
TiredAche (4:15:35 PM): leaving...kitt should be more than enough of a sign that..I'd do anything for you...
TiredAche (4:15:43 PM): but...baby steps at a time...
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:15:59 PM): I understand...completely.
TiredAche (4:16:59 PM): *gets my bass*the hardest part of holdin' on....
TiredAche (4:17:04 PM): is letting it go...
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:17:32 PM): ...*loox at you softly*...are you positive you want to do this....?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:18:31 PM): You proposed to her...
TiredAche (4:18:44 PM): ....
TiredAche (4:19:06 PM): *ducks head sofltly but holding on to my bass a bit*I-I know...
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:20:29 PM): ...I just...am wondering....*places hand on your shoulder*...if you really think that...you'll be as serious about me as you were about Kitty...and I'm not saying that it's for sure we'll take it that far, but...you did so much for her....
TiredAche (4:22:04 PM): yeha...*plucks a few strings* I did.....
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:22:37 PM): ..I just want you to really be positive you know wut you're giving up...for me...
TiredAche (4:23:22 PM): yeah...
TiredAche (4:23:39 PM): but...lizz...can we talk about these things...a bit more into detail..?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:23:59 PM): Wut do you mean?
TiredAche (4:24:46 PM): if....
TiredAche (4:24:53 PM): I...end up with you...
TiredAche (4:25:03 PM): would you...doubt on me like you did with alan..?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:25:12 PM): Doubt on you?
TiredAche (4:25:25 PM): I dont...wanna be a "summer love"...nor...any of that...
TiredAche (4:25:39 PM): yeah...think that we'd break up
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:26:42 PM): O-oh..*lowers eyes a little*...thing is, me and Alan knew we weren't going to last....I knew that'd he only be a summer dream for me...because he had already told me that he was going to leave..he just did it sooner than I thought.
....sometimes, I always think that the person I love is one day going to look at me and tell me they don't love me anymore...but I wouldn't doubt in you.
TiredAche (4:28:07 PM): ...good...*looks down softly at the strings*...hmhm..I sure do think ahead of time dont I..?
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:28:31 PM): *loox to the side w/ a small smile*...believe me, I do as well..
TiredAche (4:29:15 PM): *plays the 28 tune*hmhm..I just...wanna be sure...about this..
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:29:38 PM): *listens to you*...I want you to, too...
TiredAche (4:30:45 PM): you think I dont...? Hmhm....*softly starts getting into the song*
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:31:35 PM): ...*shrugs gently and sits down next to you*
TiredAche (4:32:25 PM): *softly ends song shortly*
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:32:58 PM): *starring at your face as you do so*
TiredAche (4:33:53 PM): *softly gets hair out of my face and moves my eyes towards your direction and gives you a gentle smile* Lizz...
TiredAche (4:34:01 PM): I love you....
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:34:22 PM): *places hands on the sides of yer face softly* I love you, too..Victor.
TiredAche (4:35:10 PM): *softly holds the back of your head and gives you a good kiss on yur forhead*
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:35:49 PM): *shuts eyes and smiles gently as you do so*
TiredAche (4:37:11 PM): I'd offer a real one...*gentle smile and head held a lil high*
ThatOneWeirdoLiz (4:38:00 PM): *opens eyes and loox up at you* ..hmhm...someday soon. *plants a quick kiss on your chin*
TiredAche (4:38:33 PM): I had an itch you'd say that, hmhm.