HollyMannings

I don't know if you'll ever look at this site again just wanted u to no i haven't forgotten u

hey rachel how is u

xXDearAngelOfMineXx

i like it to sis well bye!!!1

ummm threy all sound nice sis oh i am leavin soon kk i am going to a movie soon with my sister lol

umm how bout xXtheoneyoulove or i donno keep me updated o.O

i like fullyalive one


heheh meeep*pokes u* yah thinkin dose hurt lol

XDDDDD ok ummmm xXundermymaskXx
overmydeadbody

Braking_me_down

ummmmm yah *laughs*


meeep

oh oh how about Toxic_lips lol

or sweet_kiss or i donno meep

ummmmmmmmm*thinks more*


how about

I_never_give _up

or something i donno i ma naming randome names o.O
inlife_come_hope umm yah o.O names r hard

sure be honourd 2*sits up and thinks*

surrender_emotion

I_rock_good

angel_of darkness

ilovehakkohu*laugh*

open_my_soul

bite_me_I_bite_back

i guess we all work hard uh 2 make a better life with r friends and faimly^^

*dose the same and smiles fondly*

i don't work taht hard it was fun 2 we watched supper man when it wasn't bussy and then i went in cause my friend was sick so i tookh her shift

and that gose 4 u 2 sis and nag at aska 2 rachel*laughs*

she works 4 jobs i only work 3 and 2 i love 2 do

looks back and giggles* ur right sis thou *laughs* maybe we should asked the mockey 2 go after the boys eh*laughs*^^^^^^

lol*pants and stops rols over beside u* lol i missed this sis remeber when u chaced the flying monkey away from me lol

*giggles* u were so protecting lol

hahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
no no fare u didn't hahahahahaha give any warning*tickles right back* 2 can play at this game sis lol

hehe yes and i am thankful 4 it very thankful

lol well last nigght wasn't a total loss i made my friend lauh a lot that made me happy^^

and u no wat aska-chan told me about tieing me up this morning be4 she left 4 work eeeeeeeeep u won't catch me sis

o.O thou all of u guys 2gether i am scared of lol

thank u rachel-onee-chan ^____^

........ok i sent it and have it off my chest

*whipes eyes*

*nods*

ya it dose ....

sis can u pm me .....*starts 2 cry silently*

i i need 2 let this out

thats good

hi rachel..........r u feelin better *tries 2 smile* i-i'm fine well see u soon hope u liked u my song

If you did send another one saying sorry.oO'

I don't know.XD You going to send back?XD LOL

POP goes the monkey.=D

Sure.^_^

Oh, haha.XD It's okay, it's not your fault.XD I just can't go to bed right now.oO;

Hm? Sorry for what?oO;

^_^ *Hugs* I'm sleepy.@_@

sry rachel *huggs* i have 2 go soon ok

Yeah, I know what happend. *Sigh* Oh man I'm sleepy.

-_- No, what?

*Hugs* What, what?oO'

Are you okay? Why did you Flinche?T_T

Um Rachel?oO'

ok^^

it came up unknown o.O hes like 20 meeep*hides behind hands*

he fugly 2 o.O i umplugged ny cell

Flinches? What? Why?

hehe^^

oh ur ok right

lol meep ^///^ help me that guy who pinched my butt just fond me eeeeeeeeep o.O jk will be mad o.O shes scary when people piss her off lol

Let me kick his butt.>D

Oh, like I want to know that.-_-*

*smiles at u* *glomps8 smile rachel

yah i no rachel we should team up and tie her up lol

thou u no we all deserve a brake lol
hou it be funny eh u me and her sisters drag her off and laugh at her saying let me go lol*giggles fondly*

Yeah.XD

What did I do?XDDDD

We talked about life and love.=3 Um well, my baby up the name the bird thats called a cock?XD LOL Yeah.XD

opps i never said that she didn't want u 2 worry actually she didn't like the idea cause its exploritory sergery


and yah shes prob more worried over her frie ds then her self
she neveer dose things 4 her self anymore lately shes been 2 bussy with helping her new friend amberliegh victor nose her 2

and yah thou don't worry rachel shes just getting her apendix out

but maybe she did tell u in an old message or something sry

noo *laughs* meep ur funny with ur combacks and comments

meeep*laughs8 *tickles back*

Well, I felt like it was you, you.^^ Well, "You" told me not to be scared and I talked back out loud. We were talking for a long time intill I feel asleep. "You" even went to help me check the rooms for a killer.XD I felt really safe.oO; I sound crazy.XD

yah i sapose and yesbu r i no people who agree

u no wat sucks my b-day is the day katie is havin sergery

so i ma going 2 visit her in the hospital thou 2 make her feel better

ph yah r u sure not my twin or something o.O

oh well thought let u no ur funny

Bwahaha. Yeah.=D That movie scared me.=3 I also started talk to my self, but I felt like I was talking to you. I felt lots better.^_^

o.O asome black haior rules i have a mix betwen brownish grey o.O u soud beauiful and i no u r hehe
o.O blues eyes prettyful

Haha. Lol I love you too.^_^

yes that be asome

hehe yah we all work hard that we do yes i no hehe want 2 no wats funny rachel me and katie look almost exsactly alike but i have black hair and freckles

and thanks ur smile is prettyer lol

rachel hehe thank u

^_^*Cuddles*

yes thank u thank u thank u *smiles right back threw bruises to* hope u don't mind them i have 2 go soon i have work in the morning 6-11 then 4-10 o.O yah heh i work 4 jobs katie says i work 2 hard lol but so dose she lol

hehe umm rachel^//^ would u care 2 be my s-sister u don't have 2 but ya ur so kind^^

It's okay.*Smiles* Please feel better.=3

*glomps* oh god u scared me pls stop feeling bad pls i 4give u cause u 4gave me anbd its not ur fualt u can't help wat u think pls rachel its ok i don't mind really u don't have 2 be saddened over wat u said 2 me i have had worse trust me ok

*Hugs* It's okay Rachel. Um, she feels bad because you feel bad, you two should both feel better. Um hehe. Oh I wish I could help, I'm trying to help Kisa too.T_T

*Hugs* I want, I want. Everything will work out, it always does. Smile Rachel, be happy for a new day.^_^

shes gone and its my fault


i am so stupid....sry rachel i made u go offline

*sings with CD*

its ok rachel *huggs* hakkohu is here 4 u see

Oh, man, now I feel bad. Well...um...I can't help.T_T

*Hugs* *Dries your tears* Oh honey, I know you do. You will have them back one day, don't worry. Stand strong.^_^*Kissis* *Hugs*

i-i sent one back

Oh rachel.*Hugs*

well then were even cause i feel awful casuse i 4got i had the same name as ur bro katie warned me but i never listened

pls don't go rachel i am sry

She said shes sorry, I don't really know whats going on. PM me.

NOOOOOOOOOO pls pls don't leave

pls..........

n-no pls don't be sry

*tries 2 smile* u were sad i can understand that....

u have no need 2 feel bad

.......we both feel sry...but u no u have no need 2 apalagize 2 me ....realy

hmmm....

i am sry it was just hard


sry........sry

n-no don't say that u were frusterated


i'm sry i said taht 2

....but i am sry i got u upset aw well.....i shoulda never mestioned it

but...i sawre i ...am not trying 2 copy u o-on my bro dans grave ....sry if i hurt u don't sry bout me ...really

What? Really? Oh god.T_T

You did? Lol

ohh ok i gotcha

PM me?=D Oh and Rockie says I'm her dork.XD oO'

you wont?wont what?oO;

hehe thats what im here for!^_^ trying top make peoples laugh! =D its what peoples i know tell me that thats what im good at

lol yah i pmed back happy new year everyone^^

Thats a new one.XD Rockie always calls me a dork.oO; Well, she is. LOL They talk like all night. I watch them talk.XD

i know i do....

Thank god.oO; Hehe.XD Did you know Rick and Rockie are married now?=3

Few I thought I was being a jerk.O_O Um, our not going to be like Katie and have such a big heart you have a few boyfriends and girlfriends are you?oO;;;

Sorry, no not you. But me.^^; Um I mean...Oh...oO; Um So shes your sis now? Um what I was trying to say.....Girlfriend...um hehe. I'm I being a jerk?O_O

meeeeeeeeeeeep^//////^ umm

yah brb kk washroom

Never mind.

YAY!^_^

heyheyHEY!

i do TO have one!!! T__T

^////^ katie says she has 4 places in her heart but dosn't no how 2 fill them

i blame my sis and my stupid brain!!!!><

You know...Lol

ya me 2 rachel^^^^

Oo; my sis made me not my fault T_T

I'm back already.=D Are you my...um? Never mind. Lol

yah i do the same ok

see u in pm

lol fine*mubbles* but u r amazing and ok ok i give up i am loved u don't give up on people do u

can u keep a secrete

NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! i....dont like...to..... think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >______________________________________<

i watched the Davinci Code again yesterday adn my brain is all confuzzeled @______@

XD Sorry.oO; Thanks.XD Um Stay on please wait for like 45 mintues please.^^; I got to eat.^_^

thank u ^//////^ ya i feel loved katie is amazing i love her so much and now u 2 ur amazing 2 but really i am not that loved but thank 4 makin me feel it ^///////////^

EXCUSE MEH?! YES YOU ARE AND DONT SAY YOU ARENT!!!!!

i....dunno Oo;

Cool.XD Remember this when I tell you. ~Your my family now! >D~ Then when you watch it you will see why I said that.XD You see my new hair color on my profile pic?=D

i made you laugh didnt i???

I love you.=D I loved that movie.XD

thank u so much i now no y katie feels so safe with u awell *dries all teers* *smiles fully* thank u rachel-chan

ur very soothing i can see y everyone loves u so much^^

*laughs* ya got dat right!!! XD

Oh my.XD It makes me feel bad when you kiss other people.XDD Lol I watch Black Christmas.=D

dont remind meh -____-

XD

Your so sweet.^_^ Why do you kiss people on the head?oO;

hhe i thank you but you dont have to show me anything! i love yout o much!^_^ we both now this =D

*shyly holds back* thank u so much *cries in hold* u make feel safe thank u so much i no it will get better soon he passed out ....thank u s-so much ...really^^*small smile threw hoodie*

*Smiles* Your going to make me cry. ^_^ Lol But I want to help. Lol

Can I help?^_^

hey sis *huggz* thanks for the Best friends..image, i loved it! made my day!^_^

no its fine thank u *huggs back* i no he tried 2 beet me more my face has 4 bruises and my hand hurts thank u ever so much rachel-chan *shakes and covers face nore*

haha XD Thats a risk You should take! lol

^_^ Are you feeling better?

Yeah. Lol Are you mad at me?

Hey!!! =D Ashli Told me to shut up oO;

HIT HER FOR ME!! XD

No, I'm fine don't worry about me.^_^ I love you, I just want you to be happy. You are my beutiful Rachel, and all I want is you.^^ *Hugs*

Hay, hay.oO;;; None of that.>_<

jk wanted ,e to give this 2 u shes at work right now even no she closed last night

the new cutters lalabye

when u feel the darkness overflow
remember u not alone
you don't have 2 let ur heart go to stone
because i am here 2 let u no

when ur sad i am hear
when ur down i'll whipe away ur tears
just remember ur friend isn't a knife
and u do have a life

so don't let the darkness take it away
take my hand and i'll help shove it away
when u think oh that painful blade
sing my song to help wash away ur intural exturnal pain

this is the new lalabye
for ur other side
reach 4 the dreams u still have
don't let life get in ur way

no u never have to hide
no mnatter wat u think yr friend and faimly
are by ur side 4ever

listen up listen good
listen and sing it will help
well i hope it should
and let go og the pain delt

the new cutters lalabye

*sry this is so late its from the song that used 2 be on ur pro i thought it might help i love u rachel hopefully this will make you feel better ur katie-chan

h-hi again i read ur pro i am glad ur happyer really .....ya i sapose emotional is stronger then physcical i belive that


well see u soon rachel-chan

Who? Ashli? Tell her to frack off.oO; Get her a boyfriend or something.*Hugs*

no its fine its nothing i am movin out soon anyways and if u fel cold u can feel things


yes sry i am a bad speller
thank u thou *huggs * by i must go 2 work hopefully i shale see u soon rachel-chan and stay strong 4 the people who love u so much ok^^ by my friend

i am sry and u do have one u see

and i no how that feels my father tried 2 burn me alive when i was 8 he rapped me be4 *shivers*

and he tried slicing my throut(sp)

and no ur mom can't do taht cause u have ur own will and u have friends who loves u rachel-chan
i love u 2 as a dear friend cause katie chan told me so manny amazing storyes bout u i can't help but love friends who helpped my twin

no i blame ur life its not ur fualt*huggs* i used 2 blame on me i still blame things on me its a habit.....pls be ok u r really nice u no that rachel-chan

because ur spirit is still strong u may not fel it by i do i use 2 be a cutter my father said i was worthless saying i was the reason my mum died*whipes eyes*

and u give her strength cause she feeds off people who she loves close and in return she is 4ever there 2 help them*huggs and strocks hair* pls don't beet ur self up i am here

my name is aska

i'm sry if i upset u in anyway ok

*huggs u shyly*

i wouldn't say that

jk told me chris misses u dearly sry if i upset u

my dad still beats me ....i no ur pain there and u r amazing
u helpped my twin katie u no she as always so sad unless she was with friends but now she smiles a little more every day she says she nose the best people in the world

she says she ows a lot of her strength 2 u and her faimly here

but its an honour meeting u rachel-chan w-would u like 2 be friends

Just come to me Rachel, I will save you.^_^ Just take my hand, and lets mend each others hearts. Please?*Drys your tears*

rachel stop telling yourself that.

anyways I'm trying to help you but you won't open up. your asking people to help you and they are but you won't open up to them. that is the problem you need to open up to people that want to help.

and stand up to your mother. go runaway from her and go to a friends house or something as long as your not with her.

she can't control you if your gone.

h-hi i no u don't no me yet my name isaska and i am katies sister well we r not blood but she saved me u see

i herd all amazing things bout u and i here u lost ur mom 2 i saw my mother get murderd in front of my eyes i no ur pain i miss her 2 sometimes i feel guilty cause she died protecting me*whipes eyes* but i no she loves me my brother died of cancer 2 i only have my older bro and well....*looks around* good my father isn't home see h-he hits me.........but its fine really i hardly see him sometimes cause i work 4 jobs

w-would u care 2 be friends katie worked all last night and is workin this mornkng to 7pm and then turning around and doing 8pm -5am sry she isnn't here

Holly Get off the Computer Now!

rachel you don't know me but I know you. well enough to know that your hurting yourself and everyone around you.

please stop you have to fight what and whoever is possesing you to do this. just stop it okay you need to.

forgive and forget everything bad that ever happend to you. please for your friends.

thank you for listening.

Rachel, please love me again!!!! Please stop doing this, I'm going crazy over here. I try to lie to myself but it doesn't work. I'm nothing with out you!!!! I'm dying in side with out you!!! Stop being emo. This is not you...

meep rachel.....pls be ok wats with u


*sigh* miss ya rachel but i always be here if u need 2 vent

*Sigh* Your to emo for me.

high!!!!!!

Please come Back. *Holds on* Don't go please! Rachel!!!!

Rachel?

*holds you and strokes your hair* Calm Down...Shhh...Everything is going to be fine...I promise. Just listen to Tydle..Just think about Hakkohu and You wont feel alone anymore. Mommy isn't going to take away your Heart and Holly wont Keep you away either. You have us. You'll be safe I promise. If you go back just think about us. And I Promise I wont let you go. I'll Keep holding you okay...

Rachel? Are you okay?! Whats Going on? *hugs*

Holly If Rachel is crying you have to let her out she wants help. What mommy is doing is wrong. She can't puinsh Rachel for something she couldn't control. So Please Let her out?

Holly. You knows whats happening don't you? Will you tell me?

Holly. You have to let Rachel out. What mommy is telling you isn't right. If Mommy is Hurting Rachel you have to make it stop.

Okay Then..Holly Why is Mommy Punishing Rachel? What did Rachel do? And how come your Not letting her out. Her friend and me would really like it if you Could please let her out. Why would mommy hurt Rachel?

*Blinks* Okay...Holly...Where is Rachel? How come she's with mommy?

Rachel?...oO; Are you Okay....

well your brain controls your whole body...so thats what im guessing...but im so sorry sis but i gotta go...i seriously need some sleep

*huggz* night

ummm i dont think its you....i think its your brain.... im not trying to make you remember but...you had a head problem when you first went into the hospital right?

sis you need to stop....

how are you sick?

no.....no rachel *huggz you* dont be sorry...im not saying its right but, i wouldve done something like that.... but plz dont do it again....

i know your sad and you feel ugly but rachel, their are so many peoples who love you and dont want to see you hurt

because well...maybe you are?

hi rachel hope ur ok i i worry so much abut u u say not 2 but *sigh* i am always here 4 u when ever u need it ok

i'll still keep my half of the promise and i won't touch a knife ok 4 u and i just hope ur ok

love u rachel
katieXOX

Do you Still love me now?

I'm an ugly monster....

Hello Rachel, I'm The One You Love.^_^ LOL

No, don't leave.^_^ I will be back, I'm just moving acounts, and your not alone because I'm still here I just don't like to think about you loving anyone else. Um, I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you, so um we should just start over.

Your not going to leave while Am Around Got that! >_< Jake is going to come home! And Stop you! >_<

no rachel...pls...rachel....*teers run down face*

of corse i will 4give u no stop it rachel please *holds arm and wraps it* pls rapp it up u-ucan't-g-go the only reason i am hurting is cause ur leaving me

everyone...is leaving....tydle is right when someone leaves fac its like loosing a life in my eyes pls

i-i...can't loose u

rachel i didn't wnat 2 do this but*holds slick 2 my arm*

pls i won't do it if u don't

u can't leave everyone is leaving me
tie and kenny r dieing on me*cries*

hakkohu is leaving

and if u leave i don't no wat i do

rachel no!!! you cant leave me...PLZ dont leave me!!!

*shakes heed no* ur my goddess

ur loving and strong u have a big heart and u care so much 4 others u help people and u helpped me so much

i don't no wat i'd do if i haven't met u stil be shy and not free free from the darkness inflicted on me i want 2 set u free nut i need ur proistion rachel i am here 4 u

and no matter watv u say u r MY GODDESS MY BEAIFUL GODDESSS
ok raxhel believe that i promise i am here 4 u

i dunno, tired...very tired.... *huggz* rachel are you ok?

no its not its not ur my beauiful goddess its not 2 hard 2 go back all u need is help and i am here 2 help u

u said u loved me right

and i said i loved u and i do love u

*huggs u close and pest hair8 rachel
u would never let me do this i won't let u i promise u i am here and u can do wat ever 2 me i will always be here

rachel.....

rachel

my beauigful goddess

u no i never told u how i got that name well its because u r one pls i am, here 4 u rachel always will be 8smiles at u* pls acept my smile*holds u closer * i am here my goddess

then don't think just feel 4 get about the promise then

make me a new one*stares at u * make me a new proise that no matter wat happense u'll feel with ur heart

and *smal smile 4 u*
u always made me smile u no u broke me out of my shell*kisses cheek* just feel rachel just feel let ur emotuons rise again

u no a week ago i was really sad i had a nife in my hand but u no i remberd u an i no u would never want me to hurt my slef and i set it down *holds close 2 heart*

DAMN IT RACHEL! YOU BETTER NOT BE CUTTING!!!! >_<

no utr not i no ur not8teers run down face*

u say u don't feel but i no u do
or u wouldn't be here right now*holds ur hand 2 my heart*
u feel it beeting right
*pulls u in and huggs u* u feel my warths right

u promised me along time ago that u woiuln't give in
so don't stop now

rachel my beauifull goddess pls i love u ...and hakkohu but he hates me pls .......just rember ur promise u have alwasy protected me and helpped me i am hee 4 u now*holds u close and pets hair*

rachel u can't leave u have 2 stay and u promies me somthing rember u proimed to never let me hurt my slef so i have 2 help u u have alwasy been the one 2 maske me smile and here i am now i am trying and i don't think i am much help i am so sry

no he hates me he loves u 2 much

but i just can never ever hate him

but rachel u promised me never 2 give in 2 it and pls....*huggs su close 2 heart* ur my beautiful goddess u have 2 stay pls ...i so sry

pls....rachel....d-don't leave just cream at me *huggs u closely* all the times u have helpped me i want 2 help u pls i'm sry....just u can't leave pls....

*looks down*


i'i tired 2 help but i screwed everything up


............................sry*teers run down face*

go aheed scream at me

he hates me i can't blame him

Hello, nice to meet you.

I'm leaveing FAC.

i don't agree with one of ur somgs ur faimly loves u rachel i'm ur faimly rember i love u and i won't let u bleed never u never let me cut my self so pls get better soon thats a good way 2 heel me i no u have helpped me so much but i never rember how i helpped u so pls just think of all the people who love u every time u think of hurting ur beautiful strong body ok u r very beautiful rachel rember that we all love u

Oh, please don't love jk.>_< You...are you just playing with me? I...I...I truly love you and only you, I feel like dying with out you. My heart bracks to know you love someone else, it hurts even worse when you love me and someone else. I'm not trying to be rude, but thats the truth. And I think jk is just puppy love, don't hurt me...

no its fine i am fine with it as long as ur happy i don't care really rachel but it hurt when she played with my heart but i am fine i just wanted 2 cheek ok


cause she acted so much like u it tricked me i wanted 2 ask u only a question u could answer cause i do miss ya

wat did tie always love 2 call me rach ok u'll no that

and *frwns* i am here rachel if u need it i no ur 2 stuberin 2 accept my money ur strong willed 2 just rember 2 never give in alright u promised me something u never give up so rember ur promise think of everyone thats cares 4 u ok

*huggs* but wat ever u do don't worry bout me kk my heart hurts a little bit but *msall smile* as long as u smile its ok^^

Hey rachie...*hugs* get better soon okay.

i hope ur ok rachel i miss u and worry if u can read my pro when ur back i only have a short time but i shale be on 2morrow and every day i am usually on ok*huggs close* love ya^_^

hi hope u have a asome chritsmas


people toldme it wasn't u i need 2 speek with u when ur back ok*huggs *

Um...okay....

Awwwwww!!! xD haha Your too Cute!!! lol

ok rachel*smiles* u stay safe i work 3 jobss now 2 so i no how busy it is ok thiou only if u can have a lovely chritmas rachel love u

Rach?T_T

don't worry rachel i worry 4 a lot of people *holds back* *kisses 4heed* i am just happy i have u back u were so sad be4 but now i have u back*kisses* and i will work hard 2 have u happy 4 ever my sharia casa its indain sharia casa stands 4 beauty of my heart

yah i no*smiles at u* thank u i love u 2

thank u and in the same i will smile when ever u need it and when u don't my beauitful rachel

u no when u left i was so worried i missed u so much so manny things happened and i just*huggs u and sets u beside me* i just 4 this hole time u never left my thoughts every day i would say i hope ur ok and u no this may sound really corny but every night i say goodnight 2 u and people close 2 my heart ....i will live 2 make u smile and ur eyes go bright as best as i can rachel and i will never leave if u need me all u need 2 do is leave a message and i will always respond

tahnak u rachel u smiled yes u smiled i haven't sen ur smile in so long omg beautiful eeeeeeee

*holds u close 2 me and kisses u back*

i live 2 love rachel i have ben taught that if i love more thwn one person i can do it ur nt in the wrong rachel u can and i can *smiles at u gentally* u posseseed my heart 2 u dpon't have 2 love other people but wat i met is no i love u 2 equele to the others pls stay 4 as long as u can

no u can have me rachel*!!!! don't u dare leave me now


read my location and ocupation

*smilesz8 gentally* wow i never new .....*blushes* ur amazing u no that u have been there 4 me so much u have hellped me so much and u love me i will be honoured 2 love u back rachel but no i love 2 other people as well just no i love u dearly *huggs u closely*

i..i love u 2

but i have feelings 4 u
2 i never told u cause u were my sister and i was scared

and i have feelings 4 hakkohu...sry

but i love victopr dearly

in my calture its acetable but i don't no wat 2 do

no i be fine i just its i missed u so much and i was devastated u got hurt and u lost a lot of things and u love me more then just a sister ....*huggs u closelY*


sis i want 2 thANK u *small smile* but explane how can u love me like that i am not spechel now u your amazing

hey sis...i no u have had a hard time...i been worrying about u u laways made me feel better and i couldn't even help u pls sis r u cutting ur self i hope not i promised never 2 do it remeber i hope ur ok and i have missed u so much these past 2 mouths 3 mouths i wish i could help but i new u wouldn't let me even if i could i ...hope 2 see u soon .....i got ue friends help 2 find u i wonder if u even remember me i never 4 got u how could i 4get u rachel u hellped me when i have been down at some of my worst i been real bussy i work 2 jobs now and stuff going 2 skewl still strong i am still with victor *tydlethehedgehog* hes been havin it kinda bad 2 ...thou u prob have it worse then all of us...my bros tie and kenny r dieing soon so i just want u 2 no pls my beautuful sister do not die on me well hoipefully i will here from u soon*huggs u tightly* miss u always and try 2 keep strong like i no u r love u sis

No >.< Not back to that!!! Take that down and put it how she had it before you made it seem like she hated him! My God -.-;

twin....where you go? T_T

^_^ You seem better now. Oh and Ashli told me that Sky come by to check on you? oO; what was that all about????

Also XD I just Saw Clerks two and OMFG! I LOVE IT XD

hmm u leaving? ok bye! take care god bless. ^_^

G2g oO; T_T Kisa knows why XD

*thuimbs up* gotch girl! XD good luck! ^^;

OHHHH is that why your going to the doctor?

Can't remember.
Well bye.^_^

heh..thanks im ganna keep training cant wait to see how i look when im 18!!!!!! il be a beast!

especially with a physical ><

Both.
And three "F"s will not help.^^;

i dont like doctors.... especially if they are guy doctocrs...

lol! same here! i like female doctors more XD nurses prefably lol ^^

No, not really.
School kills me.^^;

ohhh...well ok an hour...

Not really.^^;

They are good too.^^

i look 17 or 18??? how so?????? iv been told i look like a freshman XD

I'm doing okay.^^
And thanks.^_^

thanks ^^ i dont know why i cant cross my left eye though its a retard XD

burn....thats sad XD

oh joy....fun the doctors...i have that on tuesday...or is that the dentist? oO; i cant really remember xD

dont worry bout it

I will.XD

what are you sorry for?

I love god.oO; Gtg Simpsons are on.XD

7 last year and 4 this year

"Say what you want about Jesus"...Don't say that again.-_- After moving to America I'm very much into God and stuff and I don't even like jokes about it.

I have a feeling i mispelled the lords name Oo;

Am I going to Go to hell for that?! T_T

no you spelled it right

its alright...ive got blankets to make so...yeah

and...im fracking bored o death

Yeah I did.XD I like pie.=3

OMG...what is it with everbody and pie!? -.-;;;

...Um shut up.-_-

im being sarcastic!! T~T you dont ahve to be mean about it....

thats was kool.....i like it

thats really good

Yes I can.oO I'm only 5'0".

ok im trying

Yes. And I eat a LOT.XD

it says its not available

Hay I'm only 98 pounds.oO

oO; ok

XP *Tackles you* Ha love hurts.XD

*elbows you* see? what's i tell ya? *giggles*

AHHHHH HELP!o_O*Runs*

not....not to good?

I guess I will just have to take that chance...

i saw....so whats going on...

hey would you rather email?

....

sis did you leave me?

well its the right descision i guess...might not be the best in the end though. >.> know what i mean?

I guess because no matter what you do I love you, and I know you. So I really never get mad at you. I can't get mad at you even if I wanted to.

who is he *points* ^^

well if i were u and i felt that i loved somebody i would DEFINENTLY not let them go. once i love someone il risk alot to have them with me...yup yup

No

..... wow wish it didnt have to be this way for you

I changed my profile.

I will not say that.

You are not a dog, but I think your friend does not like me.

......

i guess....yeah...but thats not the point

why do u think that? isnt he the one who keeps being an asshole to you?

No...

*Sigh* I'v already told you I would not, but if you don't think I'm telling the truth, then fine.

.........yes

aww crap thats a hard situation :/

u have to make a descision whether u like(love?) him enough to risk getting hurt by trusting him again. it comes down to that.

...Well if you really are done. I wont push you, I guess I will try to forget...

*smiles* yep! always! ^_^ even tho im like....2 ears younger than you...oh well who cares!

awwww well is he mad at you?? wats the status?

yeah...i'll stop if you stop

we're really like sisters huh? you know, its been like, exactly a year since i've met you

it wasnt you who did this to me! yeah so you told me you cut.....the first time i cut, it wasnt you who just popped inot my mind and said "cut! its good for you!"

no~ so dont you ever think tht it was you! cuz it wasnt and your a great roll model!

hey....chances are if you arent sure you want to break up, then you probably want to stay with him. i dont know all the details though. but if u really wanted to let him go, it wouldnt be this hard

heyheyhey....sis its ok...im cutting and im even regretting it now to but...its in my system, i know you're mad at em for doing it but...i just couldnt help it

hmmm :( i saw some of your comments on xKakashixandxKisax's profile sorry couldnt help but sayin this to you: feel better knowing you have friends to help you through this. il be your friend too. its going to be fine in the end. hold someones hand tight now and lock your fingers graspin and capturing all the tenderness that is available; perhaps take mine. just storm this with your loving friends. i hope u feel better with all sincerity. broken hearts are the worst wounds :( but youl get better i know you will ^^.

radomly, yet lovingly
-jon

*huggs and strokes your hair* i love you to sis...its gonna be ok....

rachel.... we LOVES you....i have never seen anyone love a girl like hakkohu loves you....i think he'd understand what you're going through.....it may take awhile but....you never know

its ok to be confused, thats what life is all about! nobody ever understands life, not really.....nobody can ever understand the rtue meaning of life.....especially when were so young (even tho were like 14, 16)

but you know what? he still loves you, and you still love him. there's no doupt about it.

"Just tell the one person you love him. Cause when you do, it might be to late"

ohhhhh, ok...i understand

still rachel....you have all your friends, there's me, rockie

rachel...oh rachel.....no, its ok.... *huggs you* ashli, from what i know, (plz dont be mad at me) is a dog and just likes making people mad and sad..... just dont listen to her...i know its hard but try.....think of something posivtive.....thats the advice i give to all myfriends anfd it works...you may say you have nothing positive to look forward to but, what about your baby?

i thought that was to skyler? cuz i was it yesterday....

well, haha your not the only one cutting

rachel...sis whats going on...plz tell me.... i can tell your hurting so i wanna help you

I'm not going to hurt my self.oO; Rick has helped me in my hard time...Please don't hate me!!! I don't whant to lose you!!! PLEASE!!!! I'm beging you...I love you...I would do ANYTHING for you...

No Way! This is Fun!

Are you going to go sleep with one of your Guy friends? You always do when you break up with someone. Face it rachel your a Slut!

Your still Crying though! XD

Let me guess your cryong over hakkohu? Wait thats not a guess at all thats a fact!

XD haha Wow I never knew I could make you cry so Bad! Thats pretty Funny!

I'm Not hurting you. You did that all by yourself!

IT'S THE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH HURTS! LET ME GUESS I HAVE YOU CUTTING AGAIN?? HE PROBABLY WONT EVER LOVE YOU AGAIN! HE HATES EMOS REMEBER AND RIGHT NOW YOUR BEING A frackING EMO!

He is and you know it! By now his probably forgotten who you are already or on a date with a girl from his School!

It's the truth rachel and you know it! His Just going to leave you like Skyler did!

His not coming back. You know how guys are. They act like they care then just go off to date some other Chick.

Look If you relaly need to talk just Go in my room and we can talk there okay?

Then Stop saying I hate you -_- and we'll both be happy!

Everything will be okay Babe. I Promise. I'm Always here for you even if we don't get along at times that doesn't mean I don't love you ^_^

But You know what. If he really means it when he says he loves you he wouldn't do something so Stupid like hurting himself.

I know Babe...I know...*hugs*

What the ehll is wrong with You?!?! D<

Do you know what you just did! Hakkohu is really upset! And Now his saying his better off Dead?! What the hell!

You should have never said you hated him! Even if you didn't mean it you still should have never said it!! >_<

Please stop Crying Rach...T_T

You can't be done, I do love you. Please...Rachel...

I saw what you wrote on your profile and all I have to say is...PLEASE DON'T SAY THAT! I LOVE YOU, I CAN CHANGE, I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU AGAIN. PLEASE DON'T HATE ME I LOVE YOU, AND ONLY YOU. PLEASE!!! TAKE ME BACK, I DON'T WHAT IT TO BE HELL ON EARTH FOR ME!!!!! PLEASE I LOVE YOU I'M BEGING YOU PLEASE TAKE ME BACK!!!!!!

Your an Idiot for writing that! I know I shouldn't get involved but. Rach You cant just Push him away by Saying You hate him. Because I Know you are lying.

You Told me once that he really Loved him and that you don't know what you would do with out him.

And You are hurting him more by saying that you hate him. So Take that off your profile and Just TRY an talk to him?

hey rach are you ok?

No it's okay, I don't need to talk anymore...

Oo;

What!?

Um Well I'll tell him they you are mad at him but Do you really wish that?

Yes I do!

I know what he did was wrong but You honestly don't wish that he was dead?

Why are you sad?

Because I was stupid for believing all his lies. And I hate the fact that if I knew I fought back harder maybe things wouldn't be so screwed up.

And Now I have to take care of a Kid the rest of my life on my own. and I know it wont be easy but I'm Going to try and atleast do my best because I can't blame this Kid for what Sky did. But I don't want to have them Come up to me and Ask about him and why his never around. I don't want to tell them that he doesn't want anything to do with them and that They were a Mistake.

So the reason why I'm sad is because My kid wont ever get the chance to grow up with a Dad around.

So you are happy, or sad?

Sad...

Why?

No prob ^_^ Hey! How come you are hardly ever on? oO;

We only Have one Computer and Jake's Dad is always on it Doing Stuff for his work and what not. ^^; Thats why i am on really late =P But i wont be on for a while because I really don't feel all that Good. My tummy has been Hurting really bad and I think there is something wrong so Jake's mom is taking me to the Doctors to Make sure that my Baby is Ok and that nothing is wrong with him/Her

Oh oO; Well i hope Your baby is Okay! *hugs* It might just be something you ate you know.

But You shouldn't take any chances! If you have a feeling something is wrong you need to Let the doctor know! =3

Hello.

You a mom? How? Why?~_~

Yea, I'm Going to be a Mom.

How? Well I already Told you what happened.

Why? Because It's my mistake and My Fault So I have to take responsablity For what happened.

AH!!! Are you Serious?! Well You know what I am Proud of you! ^^

Giving something a second chance wont hurt anyone at all! =D *hugs* and Kisa is Right you will be a Great mom! ^_^

still kinda sorta cares bout me huh? i DOUPT it!


man, it was already bout 6 months ago that we went out...wow.......


yeah well, why would he still care for me? he's probably forgotten me and he has DEFFINATELY moved on....and you know what? so have i...

and you know what rachel? you wont be a good mom... you'll be a great mom! i can already tell! and you can always come to me for help or just to chat!

Sorry kisa but i have to go now. I don't feel all that well T_T

Blah! XP haha night talk to you the next time I get a chance on the computer =)

</3

well you know what? its not your fault...non of it is so dont go be blaming yourself!!

so...he has a girlfriend huh? hmmm...wow.....and why the hell did he name it samantha...maybe after me? *laughs* yeah....hell no

i know...that was what i was going to do.....besides, i cant even do it wiht my the one i love so....yeha i kinda havta wait...

i even promised myself when i was little (not to be mean) thaty i wouldnt do the same things as to what my mom did

yeah well, thats the mystery of being pregnant! you dont know what its gonna look like or anything!

i cant wait till i can have one

yeah 5 months is around the time you start getting bigger....


*gasps* im gonna have a little neice/or nephew!!

i know you're having trouble wiht it but...it helps....

awwwa boy? how cute! ^^ how can you tell if its only 3 months? oO

sup

everythings gonna be just fine..... (did you PM me also?)

i tell this to my friend sam all the time 9and she never listens to me when im right >_>)

but thinking that, everything is going bad and nothing is going to get better, will jsut make it worse! thinking negative DOES make it worse! you need to think the positive thing about this!

yeah you maybe 16 but, your gonna have someone who will love you no matter what

"you know who?" PM me who this :"you know who" is ok?


rachel.... *huggs you* its ok, trust me... i knwo you're scared but...being scared...its normal. im not in the same situation as you are but...if you ever need me fort anything, im here for you...your my twin. you've been there mor then i have for you

so now its my turn to be there for you

in my world it is:D

CAUSE IM BORED!

Ok, im gonna attempt to drown myself, u can try this at home, u can be just like me! XD

XD

you know, i think that mens your wise....you would rather keep something so it can have a chance to live then to get rid of it so you can get rid of your pain....

well you may be a single mom but, from what i know, i think you have friends that wouldn't mind helping you at all

ohhh...OH! that certain THING!

heyheyhey....no its ok...i couldnt do it either (if i was well, you know)

sorry im bored:D

WHY DO U HAVE TO BE SO F*CKIN MEAN?:D

what?! NO! rachel you are not a bad person! *huggs*

Rachie!!! Rachie!!!!! I want that e-card now XD I sent you like 15 and you never sent me one back hahaha

hey rachel...you doing ok?

Hello.XD My weekend was fun just read.XD

Hi! And tahnks haha! XD how have you been? Are you feeling better? ^^ Jake told me what happened! D:

I still can't believe she did that...*hugs* E-mail me sometime okay I hate not hearing from you in a long time! ^_^*

Hello.^^

Do not be sorry ^_^ You are my best friend.

I don't think we should be friends...or talk at all...

Haha.XD -_-;

Just want to Cuddle with me my @$$! XD

XD Lier! I know you'll pull something!

So my room is cold too. Why don't you come in my room then XD why does it have to be your room?

haha xD Like I'll listen to you! What are you going to do if I don't? Tickle me to death? xD

X3 lol You sure about that? I thought you hated when i go in your room!

You want me to sleep in your room?

Oh Rachel! ^///^ I love you more than anything too! ^_^ haha

XD I see you dancing!

You should learn how to close the door XD But then again I love watching you ^_^ Your So pretty! :3

Hey Change your Profile! You seem like such Bum! lol I love you though! :3

Hey babe! ^_^ I made an account here just for you! =3 I love you! ^_^ haha I'll see you in a few! *kisses*

Please stop hurting yourself...T_T

Why should I? I don't care about you or Jake or Ashli or anyone else! So just leave me alone! I don't need Anyone!

Yes you do. And no I wont leave you alone, I'm not like everyone else. I wont leave you. Your hurting really bad and I'm sorry but you have to stop drinking and Smoking and All those drugs and Clubbing. Your Really hurting the people who truely care about you the most.

So please stop blaming yourself. I know what your Brothers did was wrong but you have to change back to who you are. Your not like this. Nothing like how you are now. Your a smart girl. You never let anything get you down.

And I heard about you and Ashli breaking up. But can i ask you did you only go out with her because you wanted to get over him? Cause by the why it sounds your not really over him are you?

rachel......i know this probably doesnt concern me but your scaring me!! plz....like she said stop doing all these drugs your not like that! *huggs* rachel i seriously love you like my twin sister ive know my whole life! you've been there for me when i ahd the worst times of my life!

now its time for me to be there for you

What's happend to you? You've changed so much...and Ashli Doesn't even know who you are anymore. Your Hurting her...don't you even care at all about her?

I jusy realized how fracked up my life is. Why? Does it scare you? Are you afraid of me now? And What About Ashli? Yea I do care Just I'm not in love with her. I don't have a heart remember I'm a Cold blooded dog.

rachel your not a cold blooded dog! who ever out that in your head, well FORGET ABOUT IT CUZ YOUR NOT!!!

DONT EVER SAY THAT ABOUT YOURSELF!

Yeah hes okay, but he can't come out of the hospital intill tomorrow.^^ So I guess he might be on tomorrow or the next day.^_^

Hay.=D

oh your going to bed? okie-dokie.

night my twin! ^_^ *hugs*

~Kisa

ohhhh...ok i gets it

you might hurt another student? like how?

haha awesomeness! i'll read it for sure! =3

omg...you know how i started high school right? well i thought it would be the worst thing ever! T_T

its not! im getting hugs fgrom upper-classmen guys like theres no 2morow! ^_^ its awesome....

omg...i am even PASSING high skool oO;

haha its nice to tlak to you again.... *hugs*

well, um...we've...we're back together...

im so sorry... *hugs* your still friends right?

and...do you remember me? like really remember who i am? if you dont....dontworry about it! ^_^

*gasps* i should make a tektek of you! =3 but i'm working on another chapter right now so...

u doing ok?

you made a tektek me?? xD you know...

it looks like em! ^_^ yay twin!!!!!! =3

Yay!
Fan.=D
Rachel.XDD

Hi.=D
Rachel?=3
*Faves you*
XDDDD

I know something will make you remember....
You and Skyler dident....you know....Did you??? If you did I'm going to throw up....I really think I will....Did you?

*Sigh*....^_^....I want....I just want my Rachel back....

.....

Yeah...me too...you know your the one that got me to listen to it....I know what I want for my birthday...

Dear angel of mine, yeah
Where do I start to express how I feel?
Well, love's gone blind.
Now all that I feel is what I hear.
Your words rip and tear, and
through my heart so weak and pure.
Now I find myself wanting to die…

I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
So I break you away, away, away from me. (from me from me) x2

As I sit here alone oh
just thinking about everything that you said.
You know since I'm alone.
Well, maybe after all, I was better off dead.
Cause without you (without you) my life's gone down...
What do I do, when I find myself wanting to die?

I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I break you away,
this freak i became, my enemy
this freak i became, my enemy
from my angel to my enemy
and i dont know

I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I bleed for the second time tonight
holding the love that's in my mind.
If only my love could be with you.
If only this pain, this pain died too
I'll break you away!
(all thats in my mind)
so ill break you away
(all thats in my mind)
so break you away, away, away from me
so break you away, away, away from me.
and i dont know...

Yeah I do.....


Dear Angel...

It's okay It's always been bad at any school...

Hello...

i dont kno cuz i dont really know this cadirgory but.....yeah maybe doing it and getting pregnant was a mistake but...do you want to make that mistake again?

oh...OH!!!! you guys, really...did it? wow.....(not mad or anythign jsut saying wow)

yeah i thought mine was gonna be the one to....now its like...i mean no guy likes me at skool! no ones asked me out....no guy at ALL likes me for who i am....

mom? what do you mean "mom"?

ohhh...im so sorry...if its any constellation (if that is the word) my boyfriend just broke up with me...and 2morowe was gonna be our 4month anniversery...so im kinda sad...but for some reason i knew it was coming

hey girl wats up?

Holly Jolly! :D

Come on now! ^_^ Cheer up Dolly! No more crying! :D

You've done enough of that for all of us! ^_^

Besides His not worth crying over honey :/ You have someone who truely cares and loves you! ^_^

And I'm talking about that Angel you've been dreaming of X3

So Cheer up! *hugs and kisses you on the forehead* I hate hearing that your upset and down.

What?

Hakkohu will tell you everything if you just let him...he loves you he would never lie to you.

Wow, what ever you tell your self and hes upset the most because of you and Skyler but also because you keep saying you Holly.*Sigh*

Yeah I know a lot about you. But Hakkohuv and Sisa(sisaTao) know more. But your name was Rachel before Skyler told you other wise and you were dating Hakkohu, now hes sad.

No.^^; My name is Ricky and I was your friend, and hakkohu's teacher. Before you went there.

Hmm well..you don't know me do you because you forgot everything.^^;

Hmm no don't do that.^^ I think it's suppost to look like him.=)

Well it looks just like him.^_^

AW your doll looks just like Hakkohu.^_^

Well, I'm not yet they will tell me soon...Hmm you Angel? he looks like I have seen him before.

u can answer me nxt time im on i gtg to bed its like 2 am here

ok not to freak u out but is manning ur real name??
CZ if it is are u related to the football player?

now that i have someone to talk to im not sure what to talk about......

u peoms rime really well ( i suck @$$ at spellin)

im just bored out of hell and need some kind of communicaction
besides my blabbering on girlfriend( dont tell i said that )

finishing sum homeowrk and talkin on the phone

hey sup

you? strange? heh yeah right! IM strange!! but if you like it there, if it makes you happy, then keep it there

now, your bf may not like it but if he understands that you like it there, then he should let you keep it there......get what im saying?

alrght...i have skool 2morow (damn i dont wann go!!!! TT~TT) so i need to go... i'll talk to ytou later kk? leave a commenta htime you wanna talk! =)

~Kisa

ah! thats mean! if you want it up there then keep it there!

humm...intresting

i dont know

um...yeah

y u ask?

and thank u for the comments

neat...cant wait till im 16....im just a silly freshamn but whatever! ^_^

http://www.fanart-central.net/story-39985.html

you thin you can checkl and possibly comment this story? its mine but i wanted to see if you ould read it

15? wow a year older than me!

really? how old are you? i just turned 14 in June

you have a sister? so do i!

i dont like them >.< theyre mean

did i write frack? shoot i meant funk....oh well! i prefer frack anywasy! ^_^

yeah how did you get the video up there? ive never gotten the concept on how to do that

awww... i did that! ^_^ it was hard! cuz the black hair is like...a blueish color oO; so he came out all frack-i-fied, but hes still there and i like it ^_^

your welcome =3

seriously? yay new friend! ^^ im Kisa by the way

and the site is

tektek.org

and once your there you click on the dream avatar thing

hehe thank you to! ^^ i can give you the site so you can make your own if you wanted to...

you want to be friends?

hello, i like your profile pic

Hmmm well I will give you time and space when you start to remember just come by I will be waiting...

I thought about doing that too...a LOT but because of you I never did....you made me feel happy...but Skyler just wants to take that away from me...

Well...You can ask any of my friends he is lieing to you....but I can't do anything about it but tell you the truth and hope you listen to me...

Because before you forgot everything...your name was Rachel and you were my girlfriend. But Skyler made up a lie and told you other wise....

haha I love it and look it's us on your profile XDDD ^_^ hmm I love you! and Don't listen to him his just crazy oO;

Skyler! Stop it right now! What is the matter with you! Stop picking on him. >/

Yeah thanks Rachel oh or should I say "Holly" thanks to Skyler.

-_-* fine...

yup your on your meds...Why don't you sign out and go to sleep okay? I'll call you in an hour or two =] I love you! ^_^

Are you On your med?

Wrong? How can it feel wrong? You just said you get those feelings when I tell you I love you. So how can it feel wrong?

oh...So when I Tell you I love you or kiss you and hug you, you don't get that feeling? ;_;

Feel? What feel?

Don't you ever talk like that! I would never Turn my back on you! And since when did you think about how better off you would be dead?

I'm not hiding anything from you Babe...I wouldn't do that, I love you too much =[ And I know your hurting but Hon...Your taking everything in to fast you have to go over everything slowly...I mean it took you almost a month to know just your name and how old you were...

Aww Baby... *hugs* Maybe you shouldn't listen to it at all.

Oh....Maybe you heared it from Amber or something ^_^;

Aww I can't? :P Thats mean lol And hmm nice song? oO;

I love you Bunnie-Boo :P

I'm on XP

Hello...

Oh yeah and I'll see you later! =] After work I'll head on over! ^_^

I don't think you will babe...But just remeber I'm always here for you and That is all that should matter.

Oh and tell Your sister I Said hi =] *kisses* I love you baby! Bye ^_^

mhm...Your my everything without you I'm nothing. ^_^

lol! Yeah we'll Do everything! Beach,Fair,Even The Cafe! =] Anything for you! ^_^

*hugs and kisses* I love you

lol I know but Once you come home We'll Do whatever you want to do! ^_^

I know babe, But You just have to stay there for a few more weeks but I swear I'll come everyday and Spend as much time with you as I can! *kisses*

Your Holly, My Smart,Pretty,Funny and Sweet Girlfriend who I love so much! ^_^ And that i don't want anyone else to have! >3

Man your stubborn -_-; lol Fine but read the peoples profile before talking to them! (even though that wont help much they can still be lying) So Just don't tell anything about yourself to anyone you don't know ^_^

I really do love your Username though ^_^ My last name goes so well with yours =]

I'm not treating you like a little kid Babe I just don't want you to Get hurt and I want you to be safe ^_^

Life isn't Fair Holly but Look I love you too much and I don't want what happened to you happen again ok..So please Will you do it for me?

Thats great But Delete Your account right now! Your not suppose to be on the internet remember

Holly! What are you doing one here?!