year end 2017

It has been a tragic year for my family, and in other ways a great year. My husband decided to Divorce me in a very hostile way. Since we are sealed together in the temple for time and all eternity, so this means I am still married forever to a man who thinks he can escape the problems and challenges facing us by being divorced in this life. 

I gave my whole soul to making this marriage work against all odds for 20 years, I am not going to stop now, so most of my time is devoted to trying to survive on my own [which I have never been very good at, given my mental health issues] and trying to heal my family. 

he's reached the point finally where he is most of the time willing to deal with me in a civil way, although he's still apparently telling people lots of false things about me to justify his actions.This experience has for the time completely shattered my trust in other people sine I trusted him more than anyone and he betrayed my trust so dramatically. I've sort of withdrawn from all non-essential efforts at human interaction while I'm trying to heal from this trauma. 

I haven't had time to do art lately, or to put it more accurately, art is not my priority now. 

I've also been generally avoiding spending time online because my real life needs my attention for now and art and online interaction feel pointless when my eternal family is dissolving. 

I haven't really withdrawn from this site, I'm just not active because I am focusing on other things for now.