being lost

what does it mean to be lost? is it merely not being in a place that you know? or is it something bigger, more profound? something that will affect your psychie forever? i have been lost for most of my life. i was lost when i was used for unspeakable purposes. i was lost when i the person i loved went away, never to return. i am lost now. lost in my mind, with the demons that inhabit it.