Re-Filing the File Cabinet

You know how you always get this urge to do something, but try so hard to fight it? I'm that way right now. And I'm so tired of being told what to write and forcing words that are complete and utter lies to make sense on paper and blow others away. Writing while denying never work out. And you know how you feel when you're trying to hide your true emotions? That's me again. I'd like to tell everyone what and how I feel about the situations in my relationship with that person. But, I am afraid.

I'm not going to make you listen to me complain about everything in my life. I'm just not that kind of person. I am truly blessed and thankful for everything that has occured in my life. I just wanted to get my thoughts down on paper so my mind will shut up and maybe, just maybe I can function again.

At this moment, I just want to fall into this deep slumber and not wake up until I'm in a school in which I can focus on my works and the art that I care for. I am excited for SCAD and I just...I'm just dying to finally be there and get started. I know it'll be so much work and will take my whole soul and mind to make it, but I am so very willing.

"Art is what poetry can't describe; Poetry is what art can't picture." -Anonymous

My writing is getting better and I'm trying my best to really get it out there. I want to be published before I at least turn 14. I said that, two years ago, that I'd want to before I turned 12...but as you can see...that didn't happen. When I get my first book out there, I will be steady working on the next one. I want to get out there and inspire and be inspired.

And, with my painting, I know I'll be working especially hard. I have to be willing learn and really focus on making my pieces original. But, as (Pablo) Picasso said, "Good artists borrow; Great artists steal." A little while ago, talking to my granddad (thank you, Malkie), he said, "Be true to yourself." Well, it occured to me that in my art, my painting and sketches mostly, that picture and color describe the emotion I feel towards something and tell my story. It's amazing when I realized it, because talent is something everyone has and only a few possess the talent to explain so many things through paint and pen.

I have not yet attended an actual gallery showing and I long to so very much. I'm trying to talk my grandmother into taking me to the Charleston or Savannah galleries. It'd be absolutely wonderful to view such marvelous work. One day, I wish to visit the New York galleries. It's just something I've always wanted to do.

So, if you've actually read this far, you can see that I love to ramble on. I could spend hours talking about my art and my dreams. I just had to get it down this time. I thank you if you did read this. Just know that it's your art, it's your story, and it's yours to live.

Kathryn C.