Why Dylann??

I know you may not be reading this, but I'll always love you. But the one thing I can't believe is that you couldn't see that people wanted to help you. Me being the one mostly, now just hoping you won't die and praying to some god that I don't bleieve.Why, becuase the only thing keeping me from breaking down completely is FAITH. Faith in someone might just walking in and taking you to hospitial. But please, you promixed me you'd never leave me, now your breaking that promise...