F.O.D.
Blog Entry: F.O.D.
Blog Entry: F.O.D.
Posted by: Shipo
Posted: September 4, 2008, 3:01:50 PM
Updated: November 21, 2008, 8:51:18 PM
Mood: F.I.N.E.
Listening To: Won't Back Down By Fuel
Posted: September 4, 2008, 3:01:50 PM
Updated: November 21, 2008, 8:51:18 PM
Mood: F.I.N.E.
Listening To: Won't Back Down By Fuel
Familys Of Divorce
Ever since i was little my mom and dad were always there for me. 'ya know through all that toddler stuff up till right around a few months ago.I always thought i was lucky, I mean i made the basket ball team,got good grades and amazing test scors,did great in PE class; i thought i was gonna be on of those lucky kids who would have both parents together for a long long time. I'd hear them fight some times, but my mom,for 5 years, said that everything was going to fine and nothing will happen. Well i guess she was wrong, because now i live with my Father, who just got laid-off from work,were bankrupt, and for extra credit our house is in forcloser.....and my mom is living with a friend paying 75$ every two weeks to live there...while shes not paying any child support or nothing. and My sister...well shes in her own world. I guess that those 7 months ago my dad just snaped and told her to get out....and she did. But what always gets me is the fact that she was going to leave without even telling me, heh.....without even telling me.I figur that Ive been lied to for 5 years of my, almost half my life, Even by my dad.i came to school this year seeming okay...but i wasn't...and still isn't.i roughly get 6 hours of sleep and thats on a good night...Im usaully either in a seriouse mood or a sad one. when im around my friends i may seem like im fine, but few people really see how i feel.
Now if your reading this thinking "oh she just wants some pity and attention" well your wrong im putting this story up here for all the others who have gone or is going through this same thing. Because i know how you may feel,and even if is was years ago when it happened it still hurts...and through all this, I'm refussing to give up this fight.yeah ive thought about my way out of all this...pain...in fact ive thought about it alot, but 'ya know at im not going to do it, because if i do...my whole family will fall apart and thats the last thing I and they need. If you don't have any idea what pain I and others are or have gone through, well lucky you and i hope you wont have too,but im one of those many who have or still are going through it. But i can sum up everything ive learnd about life in three words: It goes on.So for all thosre people who are going through this right now, Put your fist up and vent your pain!and for those of you who think im just some kid wasting my time, ur probably right! but I dont care because to the ones who are like me,well i might not be wasting my time to them!'ya know people say they know how you feel, but i dont beleave them because no one knows how you feel, know one ever does, they can get close but the never reach it.If your parents have gone or are going through Divorce,there are 3 opptions. 1)Suicid. 2) getting help if you need it. 3)you could hold evrything in and become on cold hearted person (but im sure u'll choose 1 or 2).I encourage you to take opption 2 because thats what im doing...and yet im still screwed up.
F.O.D.
I'm not sure how F.O.D. is going to work yet maybe a few friends of mine and some health teachers can make this program work.my idea is simple,we'd get together once a week or so and talk about what happened to you,us,it could be for and hour or 30 minutes.because some kids dont get a chance to talk to anyone and they go with opption 1 up there.it may not help someones physical health but it might help there mental health.people think well no one will miss me when im gone....thats never the case, ever,so dont think that. But if UR with Me on this we could start this F.O.D. just get a few of ur friends together and mention it too the teachers, but if you do, I'd like to get the credit for it after all it is my idea.but i would appreiciat it if u helped me spred the word.
Ever since i was little my mom and dad were always there for me. 'ya know through all that toddler stuff up till right around a few months ago.I always thought i was lucky, I mean i made the basket ball team,got good grades and amazing test scors,did great in PE class; i thought i was gonna be on of those lucky kids who would have both parents together for a long long time. I'd hear them fight some times, but my mom,for 5 years, said that everything was going to fine and nothing will happen. Well i guess she was wrong, because now i live with my Father, who just got laid-off from work,were bankrupt, and for extra credit our house is in forcloser.....and my mom is living with a friend paying 75$ every two weeks to live there...while shes not paying any child support or nothing. and My sister...well shes in her own world. I guess that those 7 months ago my dad just snaped and told her to get out....and she did. But what always gets me is the fact that she was going to leave without even telling me, heh.....without even telling me.I figur that Ive been lied to for 5 years of my, almost half my life, Even by my dad.i came to school this year seeming okay...but i wasn't...and still isn't.i roughly get 6 hours of sleep and thats on a good night...Im usaully either in a seriouse mood or a sad one. when im around my friends i may seem like im fine, but few people really see how i feel.
Now if your reading this thinking "oh she just wants some pity and attention" well your wrong im putting this story up here for all the others who have gone or is going through this same thing. Because i know how you may feel,and even if is was years ago when it happened it still hurts...and through all this, I'm refussing to give up this fight.yeah ive thought about my way out of all this...pain...in fact ive thought about it alot, but 'ya know at im not going to do it, because if i do...my whole family will fall apart and thats the last thing I and they need. If you don't have any idea what pain I and others are or have gone through, well lucky you and i hope you wont have too,but im one of those many who have or still are going through it. But i can sum up everything ive learnd about life in three words: It goes on.So for all thosre people who are going through this right now, Put your fist up and vent your pain!and for those of you who think im just some kid wasting my time, ur probably right! but I dont care because to the ones who are like me,well i might not be wasting my time to them!'ya know people say they know how you feel, but i dont beleave them because no one knows how you feel, know one ever does, they can get close but the never reach it.If your parents have gone or are going through Divorce,there are 3 opptions. 1)Suicid. 2) getting help if you need it. 3)you could hold evrything in and become on cold hearted person (but im sure u'll choose 1 or 2).I encourage you to take opption 2 because thats what im doing...and yet im still screwed up.
F.O.D.
I'm not sure how F.O.D. is going to work yet maybe a few friends of mine and some health teachers can make this program work.my idea is simple,we'd get together once a week or so and talk about what happened to you,us,it could be for and hour or 30 minutes.because some kids dont get a chance to talk to anyone and they go with opption 1 up there.it may not help someones physical health but it might help there mental health.people think well no one will miss me when im gone....thats never the case, ever,so dont think that. But if UR with Me on this we could start this F.O.D. just get a few of ur friends together and mention it too the teachers, but if you do, I'd like to get the credit for it after all it is my idea.but i would appreiciat it if u helped me spred the word.