I love this website <3

I don't think I'm ever going to part with it.  With this website. Sure I  do miss some of my friends on deviantart, (I can try to convince some to join here too)  but it was time for an art change. And a much healthier one. All I've gotten on DA was attacks and bullies. You guys are awesome. I can't wait to gain more fans in the future! And if some immature kid tries to attack me on my page I will ignore them. I'm older then them. sooo ya. Besides I've seen some arguments on others ( i try not to get involved sorry fellow watchers) :/ (But good luck dealing with them ) and honestly they are not bad. So my advice if anyone is getting attacked by some immature kid just ignore them. They don't know better and are looking for something to do cause they're bored. ;p 

I also had a positive dream where I passed my college degree. Ya it took long but I've been worried about failing it. Because I've placed so much work in it already you know? (Well I passed the observation part in my dream at least) So that gave me a big confidence boost and I feel like I believe in myself and I can do it! Also my teacher previously was so impressed with my portfolio work that she decided to display it to the world. So maybe that this is a good sign for me to take? 

And i kinda am leaning towards a guy to date for once? But I dunno he can't drive yet I don't think cause he doesn't have a car yet... So that will be an issue. My friend told me he gotten a lot more mature. But the think that bothers me he's always looking for some excuse to cuddle with someone. No joke. I just wish he can be like "Hey do you wanna hang out?" No cuddling involved.. Just-have fun and hang out. Like go to a movies without him trying to place an arm on you... n shoot. Cause that honestly gives me the shivers. I never hung out with him alone either. Just...I wish he would just be a little chiller with his...erm fantasies. But I guess all guys are like that soo... 

Ohh as for the guy I like he's kinda a drab now. super hot and cute, nonetheless, but still a drab... He never messages me (I always have to message him ) never likes my pictures but he likes other girls pictures, it sucks for me. Bec before he was like "I would date you if not for distance" b.s. But then he got worse cause I saw him on fb messaging other girls doing the "It sucks being lonely" b.s and then that whole ex girlfriend who's married b.s Also I kinda got mad at him. He's not even sorry for ignoring me. He lied to me too saying that he's busy from work and can't talk right now. But I see him post on fb n shoot. I always say "Message me later!" But the jerk never does. So it just sucks he waisted my time like that. ... because I thought we would work. Now I feel he's like just ignoring me! All my warnings n shoot. And he doesn't even say sorry. Asshole. I feel like he's never gunna bother with me. I'm even debating about un friending him on fb. ...It just sucks cause he's one of those guys where we can have long @$$ conversations about anything and i find that attractive. And he's one of those guys who don't talk about shoot. It just sucks he doesn't care about me... *sighs* sorry I'm rambling. But I am just hurt he lied to me about a lot of shoot. Where he was like "If I were with you I'd never do that to you." (I told him the past story about my ex what he did to me) but he's ignoring me so that's kinda the same thing. Asshole. I guess a few more years until I find the right one. It's more of God's way saying I'm not ready to date yet. I still need to recover on my own I guess. Put the past behind me shoot. 

Well I'm hungry. I need to get dressed and eat.