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okay so, i've been thinking about how i act, and just about at this point i just realized how much i have changed, even though i'm only 12 years old. so, this is how I acted over the years, starting at age 5:
Age 5/6: I guess I acted pretty normal, wasn't really as different as everybody else. I had just one best friend. Nothing much happened here, but I guess if you're five you haven't had the time to develop a true personality, yet.
Age 6/7: I would probably call this year my "sensitive" year, mostly because that year I got a strict teacher, so I cried a lot. I didn't have any close friends, so this year I was normal, but just really sensitive. This probably developed my shy personality.
Age 7/8: This was probably the year I least remembered. Mostly because nothing really happened that year. Pretty boring.
Age 8/9: This is when the real stuff happened. This was the year my sister got cancer, but surprisingly I wasn't bothered by the lack of attention I was getting, and I was pretty independent at this point. The scary thing was that I would constantly have nightmares of my sister being prodded and poked by these demon doctors. So, I was really scared about my sister's life. Oh, and for school this year was really easy. I got straight A's through out the whole year.
Age 9/10: This year I like to call the "turning point", or the "golden age" of my life, as this is where I started to develop a true distinct personality. This year I moved to a new school, and a new house. I was stuck with a bunch of goofballs, so that reflected on my nature. The beginning of the year I was super shy, since I didn't know ANYBODY. But at the end of the year I was a little more outspoken. During May I started watching Invader Zim, and soon I became a crazed fangirl. This year also influenced my thoughts on drawing, considering I made up my fancharacter, Icy. It was a good year.
Age 10/11: So here I finally got into an advanced class where I belong. Focused on school mostly, and I had a really nice teacher. I started to bring my now old sketchbook to school everyday. I started to draw on the computer. Had two best friends. By now my personality was shy, but happy. I can't remember as much, but I think...wait...yes...my sister was finally cured of cancer this year. This year was a very happy year.
Age 11(Part 1): So by this point it was my time to enter middle school and I was terrified. :( For the first couple days of school I was alone, as I was too shy to talk to anybody. I hated my school, and it was hard. One girl who's name I shall not mention tried to become my friend, and I accepted, only to be tricked into the girl's trap. I experienced my first bully. The problem got resolved, and we haven't talked since. Very sad and alone part of my year.
Age 11(Part 2): By this time things lightened up when I made friends with my now bestest friend forever, named Elisabeth, and I found my old friend from 5th grade, named Samantha. We hung out a WHOLE bunch, and by this time most people were familiar with my fattie drawings, and they thought I was really good at drawing. I brung a new sketchbook to school everyday. School was still hard, though.
Age 12: Here I am now. My personality has completely changed. Now I am still a little shy, but also a little more outgoing. I developed a liking to scarves, as then I also liked the colors purple, black, and red a little bit more. I've been depressed lately, but I think it's because I have now developed an alter ego. It seemed to have appeared in November, which may be the reason why I was acting differently the whole month of December. My alter ego is mostly insane-like, with a secret desire to rule the Earth. (Stupid, right? :/) My alter ego would always have violent outbursts. She is unforgiving, and pure dark and evil. So, anyway, I seem to turn into her at night. Plus, the entire month of December I have been having trouble keeping her in, but I wasn't doing a good job at it, considering that at one point I FLIPPED OUT at this group of boys who were annoying me and like, cursed over a billion times, with true anger in my eyes. So, anyway, also my normal self is changing, too. Now instead of just being shy and not talking to anyone, now I am starting to get annoyed with the human race, even though I am a human. Today when my family went to a park, all I did was either sit on a bench alone or sit up on the top of the monkey bars, away from everybody else. I just wish I was a different species, like, a fish person or something. (Wait...Oh My God I'm turning into Eridan from Homestuck. D:) So, basicly, now you can call me anti-social or something like that, but just tell me, how many people do you know out there that are not complete @$$holes???
So, yeah. That's how I've changed through the years. It's a lot.
Age 5/6: I guess I acted pretty normal, wasn't really as different as everybody else. I had just one best friend. Nothing much happened here, but I guess if you're five you haven't had the time to develop a true personality, yet.
Age 6/7: I would probably call this year my "sensitive" year, mostly because that year I got a strict teacher, so I cried a lot. I didn't have any close friends, so this year I was normal, but just really sensitive. This probably developed my shy personality.
Age 7/8: This was probably the year I least remembered. Mostly because nothing really happened that year. Pretty boring.
Age 8/9: This is when the real stuff happened. This was the year my sister got cancer, but surprisingly I wasn't bothered by the lack of attention I was getting, and I was pretty independent at this point. The scary thing was that I would constantly have nightmares of my sister being prodded and poked by these demon doctors. So, I was really scared about my sister's life. Oh, and for school this year was really easy. I got straight A's through out the whole year.
Age 9/10: This year I like to call the "turning point", or the "golden age" of my life, as this is where I started to develop a true distinct personality. This year I moved to a new school, and a new house. I was stuck with a bunch of goofballs, so that reflected on my nature. The beginning of the year I was super shy, since I didn't know ANYBODY. But at the end of the year I was a little more outspoken. During May I started watching Invader Zim, and soon I became a crazed fangirl. This year also influenced my thoughts on drawing, considering I made up my fancharacter, Icy. It was a good year.
Age 10/11: So here I finally got into an advanced class where I belong. Focused on school mostly, and I had a really nice teacher. I started to bring my now old sketchbook to school everyday. I started to draw on the computer. Had two best friends. By now my personality was shy, but happy. I can't remember as much, but I think...wait...yes...my sister was finally cured of cancer this year. This year was a very happy year.
Age 11(Part 1): So by this point it was my time to enter middle school and I was terrified. :( For the first couple days of school I was alone, as I was too shy to talk to anybody. I hated my school, and it was hard. One girl who's name I shall not mention tried to become my friend, and I accepted, only to be tricked into the girl's trap. I experienced my first bully. The problem got resolved, and we haven't talked since. Very sad and alone part of my year.
Age 11(Part 2): By this time things lightened up when I made friends with my now bestest friend forever, named Elisabeth, and I found my old friend from 5th grade, named Samantha. We hung out a WHOLE bunch, and by this time most people were familiar with my fattie drawings, and they thought I was really good at drawing. I brung a new sketchbook to school everyday. School was still hard, though.
Age 12: Here I am now. My personality has completely changed. Now I am still a little shy, but also a little more outgoing. I developed a liking to scarves, as then I also liked the colors purple, black, and red a little bit more. I've been depressed lately, but I think it's because I have now developed an alter ego. It seemed to have appeared in November, which may be the reason why I was acting differently the whole month of December. My alter ego is mostly insane-like, with a secret desire to rule the Earth. (Stupid, right? :/) My alter ego would always have violent outbursts. She is unforgiving, and pure dark and evil. So, anyway, I seem to turn into her at night. Plus, the entire month of December I have been having trouble keeping her in, but I wasn't doing a good job at it, considering that at one point I FLIPPED OUT at this group of boys who were annoying me and like, cursed over a billion times, with true anger in my eyes. So, anyway, also my normal self is changing, too. Now instead of just being shy and not talking to anyone, now I am starting to get annoyed with the human race, even though I am a human. Today when my family went to a park, all I did was either sit on a bench alone or sit up on the top of the monkey bars, away from everybody else. I just wish I was a different species, like, a fish person or something. (Wait...Oh My God I'm turning into Eridan from Homestuck. D:) So, basicly, now you can call me anti-social or something like that, but just tell me, how many people do you know out there that are not complete @$$holes???
So, yeah. That's how I've changed through the years. It's a lot.