I have a question for all of you.

I need some advice.

I want you to answer my question and read what I've got in this here journal.

Am I... Am I off my rocker?

Why I ask, you wonder? Well, it's simple... Well, not really simple, but... Y'know. -.-;



I'm in love.



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With another girl</b>. :|

And I don't know what to frack to do!!</b> 8C

I'm serious! >:C I'm not joking... It's hard to joke about this shoot. :X

Anyway... I think about her everyday, I talk with her a lot, we get along very well... She's one of my greatest friends and...I... Um... :blushes:


Ugh... Oh my God, I can't believe I'm actually typing this...

I dunno... -_- I guess I could go up to her and say "Hey guess what, I really like you, you're one of my greatest friends, and I have something to say that I've been meaning to for a while now, and that is I love you" and all that fluffy stuff, but see... It's very fracking hard. I wish it wasn't, but it is. Think about it... Me liking another chick? That's sort of a taboo in my family. It's something that is never allowed</b>.

If you guys don't know, or you haven't figured it out by now already, my parents and my brother are (more or less) intolerant of gays and bisexuals. For some reason or other, my father in particular has this belief that most, if not all, gays are immoral (Why, I don't know, he just has that belief). Needless to say...

I'm fracked if they're ever to find out about this. D8</b>

Hell, I love her more than this guy I've really liked since sixth grade... Shane's his name. :\ I've had feelings for him for the loooooongest time. And I still do.
But, because of her</i>, I'm not sure about them anymore. I mean... *Shakes head.* Nah, I think you've all read enough.


I'm trying to keep it a secret, I really am... I'd like to talk with my family about it, but... I'm scared. I'm scared that my brother.. or WORSE, my my own dad</b> might flip and kick me out just because I have feelings for a girl who probably doesn't even care. *Sighs.*

What do I do? Should I tell this girl how I feel?

Or should I ditch the idea, forever hold my fears and go for Shane instead?


What in God's name do I do...?

I'm sorry to whoever had the inconvenience to read this</i>. I really am.