Bi-Pollar Birthday

I'm not entirely sure what it is about this day that makes me act this way but lately i tend to feel a little bi-pollar whenever it's my birthday. I remember it happened last year and i know it is boud to happen this year.

This Sunday i'm going to be turning 18, the world should be my oister because; i can get a job where i can serve alcoholic drinks, i can go in to a bar and have alcohol ( i might not be able to guy it over the counter in shops yet but i can still get served at a bar), driving lessons, legaly get a tattoo, age restrictions no longer apply when going to see a movie, renting or buying one as with games and anything rated 18, get a propper I.D rarther than relying on my student card all the time as proof of age. These are just a few things i know of.

Without a boubt i'll be happy that it's my birthday, enjoy getting presents and cards and phonecalls from friends wishing me a happy birthday...and then it will hit me...I will start to think 'oh god...i'm old' and start feeling a little depressed...then back to happy again. Most likely it will keep on going on like that for the rest of the day.

I guess there is just this void in my life that is causing me to act this way...or something like that at least.

I don't know.
I just don't know.