monster in me

every time i see u
i struggle to say i'm sorry
i know the pain i've caused
and i wish to take it back
i can't stand to see the hurt in your eyes;
i caused every day second of it
what i did was so unfair
you shouldn't have found out that way
i'm sorry
your are amazing
the best friend i've ever know
i want to keep it that way
i can't look at you now
i'm only reminded of myself
i see the monster i've turned into
i can see the desire of gossip,
and the love of hate
i would die for you
i hope you know that
i love you with all my heart
that could never change
but i can see through your fake smile
you hate me
we have a good reason
and if i died tonight
i have no idea of my last words
but i do know
i'll be thinking of you
i always do
i apologize to thin air
hopeing you'll hear me
i'm sorry