Lost Story 3- Desperation
Blog Entry: Lost Story 3- Desperation
Blog Entry: Lost Story 3- Desperation
Ever had one of those days (or in my case, months) where your life just falls apart? I wrote this fic out of pure frustration. I've thought of ressurecting it a few times.
That reminds me, if anyone sees a fic here that they like, drop me a line and let me know!
CONTENT RATING:
Mild Violence
Moderate Swearing
-~- Desperation -~-
“…I now pronounce you man and wife; you may kiss the bride.”
At this, Ekyt looked away. Sakura and Sasuke kissing…even though they were both friends, it sickened him in a way. They were both 18, making Ekyt 22 years old. The man who had just married the two looked up. Naruto Uzumaki, the sixth Hokage.
Also at the ceremony were a jonin Lee (He had become a spending ninja, with only taijutsu), a Hinata engaged to Naruto (She had admitted it!), and Shikamaru and Ino tolerating each other.
It seemed everyone had lived their dreams. With that, a sardonic half-smirk rose under Ekyt’s mask. Except me…I never told Sakura how I felt…not that it would have mattered…it was all about her and Sasuke…and Naruto- the sixth Hokage? Amazing. And he’s engaged? Wow. But it begs the question- just how pathetic AM I? Ekyt walked out of the hall, skipping the reception. He wouldn’t be missed, he knew. The focus was the newly weds. It was NOT on Ekyt. And why should it have been? He was a genin, and he was single, having lived 22 years without a hint of romance in his life. He had never led a mission, and he had never been part of a team- at least not permanently.
Ekyt pulled off the annoying piece-of-shoot formal uniform and pulled on his comfortable clothes- his combat clothes. His normal gear. While Sakura and Sasuke would have time for a honeymoon, business continued as usual for Ekyt. Work meant life. Even if it was the same D-ranked crap. The next, he noted, would be his 2008th mission. BFD. He felt his anger build up, and his emotional chakra started to leak from his body. He couldn’t have that happening, not now, not until he was in combat. Instead, Ekyt tied on his headband. Then, not knowing why, he strung seven senbon together, dipped them in a small pool of blood (From his last mission- damn cat scratched him to bits), and then sank them into his shoulder. It was a tattoo, now reading “Tatsu”, or “Dragon Boy”. With the remaining blood, Ekyt whipped out a scroll and let it fly, running his thumb down it.
“Kuchiyose no Jutsu!” he called flatly. With a poof, his Chinese Water Dragon, Umisu, landed on his shoulder. Ekyt stroked him with one gloved hand.
“Umisu, please deliver the usual message to the Hokage. Here, for your trouble.” Ekyt tossed his dragon a specially-blended treat that always contented the dragon. It winked at it’s owner, then zipped off to find the Sixth Hokage. Or, rather, his office. Ekyt didn’t need to tell Umisu not to bother him at the wedding reception. Part of Ekyt wondered if it was wrong to ignore the reception. These two WERE his friends. Well, Sakura was, anyway. Sasuke, who could tell? He treated everyone the same. Ekyt decided that he had braved the wedding, and their first kiss as man and wife, he could do without the formal reception. He wasn’t a partier. Instead, he wandered the empty Konoha streets, cursing when an empty beer can hit him in the face. He reared back and threw it at a garbage can- direct hit. That gave Ekyt the idea to work with his throwing weapons. Senbon were his weapon of choice, but he kept kunai with him.
The wedding had been perfect. The reception had lasted nearly a full day and night. Sasuke had returned, had married Sakura, and Naruto had been named Hokage. Dreams come true. Of course, the next day, everyone was dragging. Naruto especially. He stumbled into his office, barely awake, and saw the scroll on his desk. He opened it, and it’s contents perked him up quickly. He quickly used a Summoning Jutsu himself and asked Gamakichi to deliver a message to Ekyt. No, Tatsu. Ekyt refused to be known as ‘Ekyt’. That was his failed identity, or so the message read. He now lived his legacy- “Tatsu”, Dragon Boy.
Ekyt/Tatsu threw the last eight senbon. Direct his, 7/8. DAMNIT! It wasn’t perfect. He had no right to expect perfection from himself, but that’s what he demanded. That moment was when Gamakichi appeared.
“Hey, letter from the boss, Ekyt.”
Ekyt nodded his thanks. “It’s “Tatsu” now, Gamakichi.” It would take getting used to, but that was his name. Kaguya Tatsu.
“Whatever. But you’d better hurry up, the boss wants to see you.”
Apparently, Tatsu didn’t care.
“Tell him to kiss my @$$. I’ll show up when I’m good and ready. Thanks for delivering the message.” Tatsu spat out the first part, then spoke warmly for the second. It wasn’t Gamakichi’s fault that Tatsu was pissed off.
Naruto waited impatiently. A puff of smoke told him that Ekyt had arrived.
“What took you so long, Ekyt?!” Naruto demanded.
“It’s Tatsu now, Lord Hokage,” Tatsu informed him dryly.
“Look, I got your scroll. What’s this about you leaving?” Naruto nearly snarled.
“I thought I was clear. I am leaving the village and renouncing my citizenship here,” Tatsu replied as though discussing the weather.
“You didn’t even say why!” Naruto shouted, throwing the scroll at Tatsu. Tatsu caught it, ripped it in half, and threw two senbon, pinning the pieces to the wall.
“Do you see a chunin vest on me? Or ANBU armor? Or a squad? Naruto, you, of all people, know that I have been trapped as a Genin for 6 years. I have no self confidence, and even I am saying that it’s bullshoot.”
Naruto couldn’t believe this was Ekyt, er, Tatsu talking.
“I can’t stop you. But I’m not giving you chunin status for no reason.”
“NO REASON? 2000 MISSIONS? YOU SEE FIT TO PISS ON THEM?! OR THE TRAINING? OR THE FACT THAT I GOT SCREWED AT EVERY TURN WITH THE CHUNIN EXAMS? HAS THAT FACT HIT YOU YET?” Tatsu calmed himself quickly. “Three Hokage’s during my time, and none of them has seen fit to give me a promotion in rank, one I am 5 years overdue for. You and everyone else, you’ve all realized your dreams. But me? Nothing! I’m a loner, and I’ve kept things to myself that would have made lesser men than me crack! I see only one way to rectify that, and that is to make my own destiny, rather than wait for a board of directors to make it for me.”
Naruto leaned forward, trying to stare Kaguya Tatsu down. His eyes had turned red. The demon fox chakra had awakened.
“Are you insulting the Leaf Village? Because we haven’t catered to you? I have no place for pissy attitudes in my Village, so shape up, get the hell out!”
Ekyt glared back at Naruto, his blue chakra welling up. At that point, several jonin rushed into the room. Lee, Shikamaru, Sakura, Sasuke, and Kakashi were among them. Apparently, Naruto had passed the message on. Ekyt didn’t care. He bit his thumb open again (the cut from the previous night not healed yet) and made a line of blood through his headband.
“If Konohagakure has no place for me…then I will FIND a place that does. And- don’t touch me!” Tatsu snarled. He didn’t care whose hands had just been on him.
“We can’t let you leave…not like this. If we have to fight you, we will,” Sasuke informed him.
“So be it,” Tatsu shot back. But he couldn’t move. Shadow Possesion Jutsu? “Damn it!” Tatsu swore.
“Sorry, but if you honestly thought we’d let you go peacefully…” Shikamaru had him trapped.
Sakura and Sasuke stood to one side, Kakashi to the other, Naruto behind him, and Shikamaru in front of him. Tatsu closed his eyes, defeated.
“Treason…You committed treason…WHAT on earth made you want to leave?!” Naruto asked. By now, Tsunade and Sarutobi had joined them. Shikamaru kept Tatsu pinned with his Shadow Possession.
“We all…all have had dreams…you’ve all recognized yours…But me…” Tatsu laughed hollowly. “Well, I’m a genin, I’m single, and apparently, I’m not fit to clean the Hokage’s sandals.”
“No one said that!” Lee protested.
“And yet, D-rank after D-rank, order after order…Just let me go. I have no dreams, they’ve all been destroyed. But maybe…maybe I can make new ones…because you’ve stepped on my dreams, and crushed the pieces to dust. Now, I’ve explained myself. Let go.”
Shikamaru didn’t. Ekyt let his emotions surge through him. Shikamaru put a hand to his chest- it hurt so much. But he didn’t let go of the Shadow Possession Jutsu.
“You have felt only a fraction of what I feel every day. It’s a blast, isn’t it? Your dream was to have carefree life among the clouds, to have a wife, to retire, to play Go and Shougi, then die, wasn’t it Shikamaru? My dreams…my dreams no longer exist, and therefore mean nothing. I’ve failed to validate my existence. I wish to do so, and now I see my allies standing in my way…”
Everyone could feel Ekyt’s cold look.
“Too bad. For your crimes, you are to be imprisoned.” Naruto’s information sent a stir through the small crowd. This time, the surge of emotions Ekyt let loose forced Shikamaru to let go. He fell back in pain. Ekyt bit his thumbs.
“Twin Summoning Jutsu!” He called. Poof Poof! His dog, Holly, and his Dragon, Umisu, appeared at his side. Umisu and Holly had come ready to fight, but stopped.
“Kid?”
“Attack them,” Ekyt said flaltly.
Holly stared at him. She looked at the others, then back at him.
“No,” she said firmly. “You’re making a mistake. My collar has Konoha’s symbol on it. Not yours.”
Ekyt looked in desperation. “Holly…and Umisu…have abandoned me…I should have known. People and animals…the world is full of them, but neither are worthy of trust. Well, you can always trust two things: yourself…(Ekyt flipped a kunai to a reverse grip in his hand) and death…”
Ekyt put the kunai to his throat. “It’s a shame we won’t get to fight. But now, I’ve got to realize my own visions. Don’t worry, they have nothing to do with the village. You won’t hear from me again until I’ve completely succeeded, or completely failed.”
Ekyt backed out of the room, no one daring to attack.
“He’s gotten desperate…Kakashi, you know what you have to do…”
Kakashi lifted his headband. “Yes, I do. It’s a shame…but it seems the Raikiri is his future…”
That reminds me, if anyone sees a fic here that they like, drop me a line and let me know!
CONTENT RATING:
Mild Violence
Moderate Swearing
-~- Desperation -~-
“…I now pronounce you man and wife; you may kiss the bride.”
At this, Ekyt looked away. Sakura and Sasuke kissing…even though they were both friends, it sickened him in a way. They were both 18, making Ekyt 22 years old. The man who had just married the two looked up. Naruto Uzumaki, the sixth Hokage.
Also at the ceremony were a jonin Lee (He had become a spending ninja, with only taijutsu), a Hinata engaged to Naruto (She had admitted it!), and Shikamaru and Ino tolerating each other.
It seemed everyone had lived their dreams. With that, a sardonic half-smirk rose under Ekyt’s mask. Except me…I never told Sakura how I felt…not that it would have mattered…it was all about her and Sasuke…and Naruto- the sixth Hokage? Amazing. And he’s engaged? Wow. But it begs the question- just how pathetic AM I? Ekyt walked out of the hall, skipping the reception. He wouldn’t be missed, he knew. The focus was the newly weds. It was NOT on Ekyt. And why should it have been? He was a genin, and he was single, having lived 22 years without a hint of romance in his life. He had never led a mission, and he had never been part of a team- at least not permanently.
Ekyt pulled off the annoying piece-of-shoot formal uniform and pulled on his comfortable clothes- his combat clothes. His normal gear. While Sakura and Sasuke would have time for a honeymoon, business continued as usual for Ekyt. Work meant life. Even if it was the same D-ranked crap. The next, he noted, would be his 2008th mission. BFD. He felt his anger build up, and his emotional chakra started to leak from his body. He couldn’t have that happening, not now, not until he was in combat. Instead, Ekyt tied on his headband. Then, not knowing why, he strung seven senbon together, dipped them in a small pool of blood (From his last mission- damn cat scratched him to bits), and then sank them into his shoulder. It was a tattoo, now reading “Tatsu”, or “Dragon Boy”. With the remaining blood, Ekyt whipped out a scroll and let it fly, running his thumb down it.
“Kuchiyose no Jutsu!” he called flatly. With a poof, his Chinese Water Dragon, Umisu, landed on his shoulder. Ekyt stroked him with one gloved hand.
“Umisu, please deliver the usual message to the Hokage. Here, for your trouble.” Ekyt tossed his dragon a specially-blended treat that always contented the dragon. It winked at it’s owner, then zipped off to find the Sixth Hokage. Or, rather, his office. Ekyt didn’t need to tell Umisu not to bother him at the wedding reception. Part of Ekyt wondered if it was wrong to ignore the reception. These two WERE his friends. Well, Sakura was, anyway. Sasuke, who could tell? He treated everyone the same. Ekyt decided that he had braved the wedding, and their first kiss as man and wife, he could do without the formal reception. He wasn’t a partier. Instead, he wandered the empty Konoha streets, cursing when an empty beer can hit him in the face. He reared back and threw it at a garbage can- direct hit. That gave Ekyt the idea to work with his throwing weapons. Senbon were his weapon of choice, but he kept kunai with him.
The wedding had been perfect. The reception had lasted nearly a full day and night. Sasuke had returned, had married Sakura, and Naruto had been named Hokage. Dreams come true. Of course, the next day, everyone was dragging. Naruto especially. He stumbled into his office, barely awake, and saw the scroll on his desk. He opened it, and it’s contents perked him up quickly. He quickly used a Summoning Jutsu himself and asked Gamakichi to deliver a message to Ekyt. No, Tatsu. Ekyt refused to be known as ‘Ekyt’. That was his failed identity, or so the message read. He now lived his legacy- “Tatsu”, Dragon Boy.
Ekyt/Tatsu threw the last eight senbon. Direct his, 7/8. DAMNIT! It wasn’t perfect. He had no right to expect perfection from himself, but that’s what he demanded. That moment was when Gamakichi appeared.
“Hey, letter from the boss, Ekyt.”
Ekyt nodded his thanks. “It’s “Tatsu” now, Gamakichi.” It would take getting used to, but that was his name. Kaguya Tatsu.
“Whatever. But you’d better hurry up, the boss wants to see you.”
Apparently, Tatsu didn’t care.
“Tell him to kiss my @$$. I’ll show up when I’m good and ready. Thanks for delivering the message.” Tatsu spat out the first part, then spoke warmly for the second. It wasn’t Gamakichi’s fault that Tatsu was pissed off.
Naruto waited impatiently. A puff of smoke told him that Ekyt had arrived.
“What took you so long, Ekyt?!” Naruto demanded.
“It’s Tatsu now, Lord Hokage,” Tatsu informed him dryly.
“Look, I got your scroll. What’s this about you leaving?” Naruto nearly snarled.
“I thought I was clear. I am leaving the village and renouncing my citizenship here,” Tatsu replied as though discussing the weather.
“You didn’t even say why!” Naruto shouted, throwing the scroll at Tatsu. Tatsu caught it, ripped it in half, and threw two senbon, pinning the pieces to the wall.
“Do you see a chunin vest on me? Or ANBU armor? Or a squad? Naruto, you, of all people, know that I have been trapped as a Genin for 6 years. I have no self confidence, and even I am saying that it’s bullshoot.”
Naruto couldn’t believe this was Ekyt, er, Tatsu talking.
“I can’t stop you. But I’m not giving you chunin status for no reason.”
“NO REASON? 2000 MISSIONS? YOU SEE FIT TO PISS ON THEM?! OR THE TRAINING? OR THE FACT THAT I GOT SCREWED AT EVERY TURN WITH THE CHUNIN EXAMS? HAS THAT FACT HIT YOU YET?” Tatsu calmed himself quickly. “Three Hokage’s during my time, and none of them has seen fit to give me a promotion in rank, one I am 5 years overdue for. You and everyone else, you’ve all realized your dreams. But me? Nothing! I’m a loner, and I’ve kept things to myself that would have made lesser men than me crack! I see only one way to rectify that, and that is to make my own destiny, rather than wait for a board of directors to make it for me.”
Naruto leaned forward, trying to stare Kaguya Tatsu down. His eyes had turned red. The demon fox chakra had awakened.
“Are you insulting the Leaf Village? Because we haven’t catered to you? I have no place for pissy attitudes in my Village, so shape up, get the hell out!”
Ekyt glared back at Naruto, his blue chakra welling up. At that point, several jonin rushed into the room. Lee, Shikamaru, Sakura, Sasuke, and Kakashi were among them. Apparently, Naruto had passed the message on. Ekyt didn’t care. He bit his thumb open again (the cut from the previous night not healed yet) and made a line of blood through his headband.
“If Konohagakure has no place for me…then I will FIND a place that does. And- don’t touch me!” Tatsu snarled. He didn’t care whose hands had just been on him.
“We can’t let you leave…not like this. If we have to fight you, we will,” Sasuke informed him.
“So be it,” Tatsu shot back. But he couldn’t move. Shadow Possesion Jutsu? “Damn it!” Tatsu swore.
“Sorry, but if you honestly thought we’d let you go peacefully…” Shikamaru had him trapped.
Sakura and Sasuke stood to one side, Kakashi to the other, Naruto behind him, and Shikamaru in front of him. Tatsu closed his eyes, defeated.
“Treason…You committed treason…WHAT on earth made you want to leave?!” Naruto asked. By now, Tsunade and Sarutobi had joined them. Shikamaru kept Tatsu pinned with his Shadow Possession.
“We all…all have had dreams…you’ve all recognized yours…But me…” Tatsu laughed hollowly. “Well, I’m a genin, I’m single, and apparently, I’m not fit to clean the Hokage’s sandals.”
“No one said that!” Lee protested.
“And yet, D-rank after D-rank, order after order…Just let me go. I have no dreams, they’ve all been destroyed. But maybe…maybe I can make new ones…because you’ve stepped on my dreams, and crushed the pieces to dust. Now, I’ve explained myself. Let go.”
Shikamaru didn’t. Ekyt let his emotions surge through him. Shikamaru put a hand to his chest- it hurt so much. But he didn’t let go of the Shadow Possession Jutsu.
“You have felt only a fraction of what I feel every day. It’s a blast, isn’t it? Your dream was to have carefree life among the clouds, to have a wife, to retire, to play Go and Shougi, then die, wasn’t it Shikamaru? My dreams…my dreams no longer exist, and therefore mean nothing. I’ve failed to validate my existence. I wish to do so, and now I see my allies standing in my way…”
Everyone could feel Ekyt’s cold look.
“Too bad. For your crimes, you are to be imprisoned.” Naruto’s information sent a stir through the small crowd. This time, the surge of emotions Ekyt let loose forced Shikamaru to let go. He fell back in pain. Ekyt bit his thumbs.
“Twin Summoning Jutsu!” He called. Poof Poof! His dog, Holly, and his Dragon, Umisu, appeared at his side. Umisu and Holly had come ready to fight, but stopped.
“Kid?”
“Attack them,” Ekyt said flaltly.
Holly stared at him. She looked at the others, then back at him.
“No,” she said firmly. “You’re making a mistake. My collar has Konoha’s symbol on it. Not yours.”
Ekyt looked in desperation. “Holly…and Umisu…have abandoned me…I should have known. People and animals…the world is full of them, but neither are worthy of trust. Well, you can always trust two things: yourself…(Ekyt flipped a kunai to a reverse grip in his hand) and death…”
Ekyt put the kunai to his throat. “It’s a shame we won’t get to fight. But now, I’ve got to realize my own visions. Don’t worry, they have nothing to do with the village. You won’t hear from me again until I’ve completely succeeded, or completely failed.”
Ekyt backed out of the room, no one daring to attack.
“He’s gotten desperate…Kakashi, you know what you have to do…”
Kakashi lifted his headband. “Yes, I do. It’s a shame…but it seems the Raikiri is his future…”