DeathNinja919

really...then why is he avoiding me and spending so much time with her??......now im confused...but somewhat happy..he still lied to me about the drinking thing...but i dunno....txt him for me just to see what he says..i dun wanna txt him thats all...>.>...well i think i no too ^^ hehe, anyway yeah ...thanks for finding things out for me... i no ur always there ^^. well anyway , i dunno BYES

i told yupu not to do anyhting..and now jeff went to help her...he is gonan think i did this..im sorry imover reacting... i just havent been my self lately...i couldnt sleep last night...ive been seeing things..and i just recently got sick....i cant belive jeff ouwl just up and go like taht..and leave me...to save HER...i was his..and he was mine...i thought he ws gonna marry me..i thought so..but it seems i was wrong...i dont know....im just really hurt and reasonably sad...i dont know...i just hope he realizes what he is missing when im gone....i always thought...he was perfect...why cant i stop loving himm....

thankies!

not to great dameon..i did waht u said..i approached jeff, taked ot him then, went to kiss him..i smelt her on him, andd wheni went to kiss him, he backed away and went to bed, it seems as though he is sick of me then...i still love him with all my heart...but...it just seems he loves me..with a very little part of his...thats all...well yeah im gonna confront layla and see what she has to say...i found lip stick on his shirt, u no n his collar...

He came home he was pretty much sober..butk inda drunk adn all..and he had the nerve to tell me he wasnt drinking... i cant take this crap anymore...too muc h going on ...i dont know...just i always thought that eff was always gonna be there you no??...well i gues soyouw would...well i gt...so eyah...Byes

hey,
speaking of May 19...have you seen my hug Kane day pic???

okay...ill do it tonight or someting..imnot feelin fwll so im gonna lay down..thanks alot dameon....ill talk to ou tomarrow then ok...Well tahnks and Byes,,,

well..i dunno......just maybe jeff is sick of me... and wants something new *still crying*... id love to be like you..but im just not that type of perosn..when it comes to people i love..id do anything to make them happy...even oif it means seening them with someone elose...i dunnoo....if u think i should i will i guess...cuz ur opinion i\ts really important...but i dunno...if he is lying to me know..he can just do it behind my back...and id rather not lie a bout a lover then love lie..i dunno..i cant even talk right*teas fall*...ooh tell waku i said hi and taht im fine... ill get over it...but i dunno...like i cant stop crying.. and i dunno whats up with em....Dameon...I cant be alone anymore... im so used to being witth jeff...im so confused.... if u see him..tell him..i dont wannas ee him..but tell him to come home..there will beblankets on the couch..i cant see him right now...i no...im being dumb but....its...i dunno...me

I dunno dameon...dont go after her if it happened ok ...just let me fight my own battles...and if she wants him.. she can have him i gues..it'll hurt for a while...but slowlyt ill get over it..or will i ...i've never felt this way for anyone before i dunno....and he is drinking agai..i though t he stopped..he lied to me... this is to hard on me... *looks to ground*

"i cant take this " *crying*.... he is lying to me and everything... i dont wanna let him go..but i might have to... you've always stood up for me... and maybe its time..i stood up for myself..and stopped letting people hurting me.. time away might help...but i cant stand leaving you..im so hurt...TOT.....i dunno....just..i need help

o...well that hurt...like layla...why her...i dunno...now im even more confused and sad..i dunno.... im thinking of.. taking a break from WWE..maybe lay low..and hiude form this stupid pl;ace...Man...Jeffs..its not like him to do that...like at a bar with another girl...this is so confusing

Im lost....imnot even gonna call him....i cant see him now..it hurts to much..way to muchh..

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