FlameTheFox578

hey i saw u favorited "what to do in wal-mart when your bored" well i just added a new chapter! check it out!

h-h-hey Cesar ^^.... umm how r u doing...?

well I guess ur not there...I hope ur have a great day...its fine if you don't wanna talk to me right now...i understand...i'm going for a while anyways...i guess i'll c you when I get back...sorry if i don't seem like i'm chatting to you much..I can only give you so much...and yet still want to give you my all....what can I do Cesar? what can I do to make you realize that I'm sorry....and that I love you...? This whole "being friends with your love" thing...isn't exactly working for me...it hurts to be friends with you...I want to be more than you friend....How the frack did I end up loving you so much that it hurts right now? I don't know...i guess the answer to that is...because...of ur voice....the kindness yet sterness in your voice....gave me hope for everything else...and when I didn't hear your voice...I needed to talk to you...so I can have the confidence in myself...to know that I was beautiful..because when I talk to you...I feel hope, beautiful, and loved. but that doesn't seem to matter much right now does it? how i feel for you? yea i bet ur sick and tired of hearing how much I feel for you and I'm sorry if you are...but its true and I can't hold it inside...you may never feel the same way I do for you...but I know you've felt it from me at least once..and it may have been for a second and it may have been for days...but I know u've felt it...I just wish I could talk to you...not here...but on the phone...hear your voice...so I can get my confidence...my dignity....my hopes....my dreams...back...or at least make them seem real again...and ur love....i want that back too...I dont' want to share you...i'm going to be selfish yes...but if you want boundaries I'll give them too you..I'm willing to do anything for you...thats why this whole friend thing? it ain't gonna work out...I've tried so hard to accept it....and I've tried so hard to make it work..but in the end its not working for me...I need you..I need you to make me feel whole....and until I can have you...and have ur love again...my life will continue to suck and sink lower and lower into the ground....because with you and ur love i could rise up and face anything in my path....but now....everything in my life....is rising up against me and I can't help but just look at the ground in shame and cry sometimes...I feel like I have given up everything...and sure that may be stupid of me...but...i know it will be worth it in the end....

I know when you read this you will be mad at me...or not say anything....or smile like u always do...but I don't want that right now....I want to know how you feel for me...if the love you ONCE had for me is still there....if I should just stop loving you....just tell me...just tell me what i need to do...thats all i ask of you Cesar....I know it may seem like I ask you a whole lot for things but this is more important than anything...I guess what i'm asking is what are u feeling? and what are you feeling for me? i think thats all I want to know at the moment....Take your time I know it is precious to you...I don't care how long it takes to answer...just answer...thats all I want...

Well I'm gonna go for a while...I don't think I can stay here any longer....tears are going down my face and this song that I sing is not the words that I want to come out of my mouth...but I love you...I dont' care if I get in trouble for saying that...because I do and why the hell should I get in trouble for saying that to you when its how I feel for you...please understand love, i hope you do, I love you and I will continue to love me even if I'm cut off from you...Just remember that off me...I gave everything I had for you...and I still do not regret it...This is not a fantasy to me...this is real...

Well I'm sorry I wasted your time I again know it is precious to you but i need to know alright?

I still love you even if you don't...

always and forever,
~Ashlei~

yur not wasting my time....and im not sick of u telling my how much u feel about me <=(

hey hows it going? 4 me nothing at all

^^ well I have a few ideas ummm what about....the beach? and how it makes me feel? or

Maybe...a story about someone's dream and they want them to be real.. O_O I HAVE THE PERFECT ONE =D

I'll write it to ya when its done ^^;;

Well Cesar ^^ how is everyone? Mikey? Kenny? Jason? how have they been? ^^

Hi Flame^_^

alright sweet love ^^ o and have you eaten din din? I'm just making sure ^^;; so i''m not interrupting anything ^^

eeee I want to go to the beach this weekend..but the problem is 1. i don't have a ride and 2. I want you there with my friends and family as well ^^ =3 I would teach ya how to surf and we could all go to ColdStone (best ice cream store in the freaking world ^3^) Lolz but well sooner or laterz *smiles happily* *starts to sing* ^_____^ now thats putting in the mood to write a song ^^ wwwweeee ^^

What do you think I should write about? ^^

alright luv i'm back ^^ O AND GUESS WHAT? *squeals loudly with joy* =3 i get a new self phone with a walkie-talkie on it >3< how swwwweeettt weeeee ^^ umm anyways ^^;;; i'm back now and umm whats up? ^^;;

hello