Nocturna

Hello there, my dear ones.  I am Sasha Chloe Smith and I thank you for taking the time and interest in my dark life.  Please, allow me to introduce myself.  I am 18 years old have deep blue eyes and am naturally blond. BRANDON KEVIN ROBBINS IS MY SOUL MATE AND I LOVE HIM MORE THAN LIFE ITSELFNESS!!!!!!!!!
 
Music is my life, it is the one thing that brings unconditional release and protection from the cruelty of the world today, for me anyway! I'm not going to beat around the bush either, that is most definitely NOT how I wish to conduct myself!  I am physically disabled.  I have Cerebral Palsy that affects my legs and right arm and require the use of an electric wheelchair for mobility as I cannot walk at all unaided.  If this strikes you as a problem, then clearly you are not the sort of person I wish to meet and will ask you kindly not to make further judgement or contact, at risk of wasting time for both of us.  At the moment, I am sporting a rather bizarre hairstyle and what I can only describe as half black, half white outgrown messy bob type thing. However, I change the style and colour of my hair frequently as I get bored of normality.
 
I have several nicknames, many of which were Brandon's divine creations and some that are not meant to be shared  but I am known by most as 'Nocturna'.  I am the redefinition of a 'goth'.  True, I muse far too much to be healthy, always look on the darker side of life and believe in things that others curse but also love conversing and meeting new people.  Have also been described as too loud to be a goth! RDRR.  Very passionate about my country and take pride in being Welsh though not fluent in the Welsh language, I do hope I will be one day, when I have the time dude!  I do not believe in convention, I do not see how stereotypical nature has survived.  How can it? After all, stereotypes are mere assumptions often tainted with cruelty and misinterpretation. how can you assume ones nature without even knowing them at all?  This perplexes me and frustrates me equally... 
In addition, I am a keen vampire enthusiast and have been for approximately 3 years now.  However, I have recently been 'awakened' and the vampiric influence upon my life has become so much more than a simple hobby or phase if you will.  I can now be defined as a 'sanguinarian'. For those of you familiar with the vampiric way of life, you will know exactly what I am referring to.  For those who do not well, lets just say I enjoy a drop of the 'red stuff' on occasion...  I am beginning to realise more than ever that I am not the same as everyone else and although this is something I pride myself on greatly, there are many questions about recent events and the habits in my life that require much deliberation and thought from others wiser than myself.  I seek answers to my own nature and is one of the main reasons I became a member here. Although I know this is difficult to comprehend, please do not allow it to blur your judgement of me as this is but one aspect of the vast complexity that is thy life but if you choose to dismiss it as a childish hobby then so be it.  I shan't be the one to stop you even if it would fill me with sadness...   Expanding my knowledge on others beliefs and lifestyles is a great passion of mine and I revel in meeting new people.  I am very open minded and easy to get on with.  Having said that, if you say something I disagree with totally, then I shall make my voice known rather swiftly.  I despise racist and indeed prejudice people of all kinds and have one message for those individuals: GROW THE HELL UP DUDE!!! That's about it really can't think of anything else to scare you all away with but shall let thee know if I come up with anything...
 
Here are the things I cherish most with all my throbbing, lickle, black vampiric heart:
 
My beloved Brandon, the one dude I'd give each and every aspect of my life to without a doubt and in complete trust for he is my Dark Knight and has helped me so much. I owe everything I am to him and would gladly surrender anything he desired for him.  This is the greatest and deepest sense of devotion I have ever felt towards another living soul and I pray our love will outlast even the restrictions of eternity.  For I truly believe we were destined to be with one another, for all time and I love him with all my lickle, pounding black heart. 
 
MUSICNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Metal/Goth/Punk all kicks to me dude! All things concerning vampirism, BLOOD and hair-my BIGGEST fetishes! (Longer the hair, the bigger the swoon! :-P) Lestat de Lioncourt, Vampirism, Extremely loud music-the more 'extreme' the better! Vamp/goth films, vampire literature, feeding, the colour black and the absence of light.
 
Ohohoho, lets go to town sugarness! MUSIC BE THY LIFE!!! I'm an odd mix of mental Metal head meets perfect Punk, add a dash of Indie every now and again and you're almost there! However, Metal is what I'm most passionate about! Lets see where to begin.... KKness, think I've got it, here goes!
HIM!!!! BILLY TALENT, Billy Idol, Three Days Grace, Stonesour, Tenacious D, Slipknot, Trivium, Bullet For My Valentine, Buckcherry, CKY, The Offspring, Stereophonics, Mountains and Hills, Garbage, The Distillers, bit of Black Sabbath, Roadrunner United, A bit Linkin Park, A bit of the old school Limp Bizkit stuff, some of the back in the day Lost Prophets stuff but none of this new Emoness they've sadly moved on to, a bit of Muse, Static-X, Disturbed, Avenged Sevenfold are pretty awesumness, ummmm.... KISS, Alterbridge, The Killers, A bit of Motorhead, There's loads more that I really haven't got time to think of right now but shall get back to thee if I think up anymore! This is a working progress... RDRR!
 
 
As far as film goes ummm these are the ones that rock the bouldersness in my opinion:
 
Interview With The Vampire, ALL the SAW Movies in the trilogy-Though haven't seen SAW 3 yet, am so getting it on DVD! (My all time favourite film!) Star Wars movies, (LOVED Episode 3!!! Love all of them equally though!)Pirates Of The Caribbean both Curse Of The Black Pearl & Dead Man's Chest ROCKNESS! Matrix movies, (All of them, though the original is my fave!) X MEN!!!! ALL OF THEM, lovingness X-Men 3: The Last Stand-AWESUMNESS!
The Crow, (Original one only is a true masterpiece) Sin City babyness!!!! The Prestige-AMAZINGNESS FILM!!!!!! The Omen, Can't wait to see Ghostrider and The Simpsons Movie coz Ghostrider rules and I L-O-V-E THE SIMPSONS DUDE! Beetlejuice, Underworld 1 & 2, Queen Of The Damned, Meet The Parents, Gotta see Tenacious D in the Pick of Destiny uber soon tooness Blade Trilogy, (Again 1st is best but loved the scene with 'Drake' feeding on the goth girl in the 3rd!), All 4 Inuyasha Movies, Secret Window, DOOM, Hide And Seek, Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust, Spiderman 1 and 2, (1 is the best no contest there but OMG does Spiderman 3 look AMAZINGNESS VENOM DUDE YAYNESS!) Nightmare Before Christmas, The Green Mile, (1st film I EVER full blown cried at!!!) The Devil's Advocate, War Of The Worlds, Constantine, The Lion King, Aladdin, Dusk 'Til Dawn, The Little Mermaid, Eurotrip, Bambi, Edward Scissorhands,  Dogma, The Punisher... So many the list is endlessness!
 
Ummm... Don't really watch all that much TV dude but this is what I love: THE SIMPSONS WOOOOOOOONESS! HELLSING!!! (Wow this show rocks the bouldersness and to think, I would never have even known such a marvel existedness if it wasn't for my beloved Brandon.  Recently discovered the greatness that is Inuyasha  Now I'M HOOKED YAYNESS! Thanks baby!) Blade: The TV Series RULESNESS, DOCTOR WHO BABY YEAHNESS!!!!! SOUTH PARK!!!! HEX! (Can't wait for series 3!) Mad, Mad, House,(Now THAT was what a reality TV show should look like!) DBZ, a bit of Naruto and that's all I can think of right nowness...
 
Here are the people that have claimed 'Hero' status in my eyesness:
 
Non-Fictional: My Nanna for being my muse and the most amazing pensioner on the planet!
My beautiful, brave Brandon, who inspires me and never lets me give up. Brandon, I love you with all my heart until the end of time my darlingness!
All the people in the world who stand up for what they believe in.
Kerry Ellis-For blowing me away with her talent and amazingly touching performance as Elphaba in WICKED at the London Victoria Apollo Theatre.
The people with so much determination and perseverance they survive everything, even life's only certainty that is death.
Dane Cook-For being one of the funniest men alive and making me laugh hysterically on my own in the dark watching him on You Tube!
CRISS ANGEL!!!
Anne Rice-What can I say, she's a legendary author!
 
Fictional:
Lestat de Lioncourt-The Best Vamp EVER Createdness!
Elphaba-The Wicked Witch Of The West for showing the purity and goodness is nothing but a vast illusion.
 
And that's it my friends.  Take care,
 
 
Nocturna xV^^Vx