alchemest1

Oh geez, I'm so stupid! I forgot to wish you and Jenny well!

Sorry again for the angsty post. I shouldn't let my temper get the better of me like that. At any rate, just kind of ignore that last post, lol.

Whoa, I'm surprised we wound up agreeing on that particular issue. lol, I'll have to think of some other debate.

I wish 'making it' only depended on beliefs and morals. But there are four dojos on every corner, and for the price of a gi and admission, you can get a black belt without ever giving a damn. I hate that >< That and I'm so limited in what I could teach, and even what I know. Not to mention the fact that theory and practice are two different things.

Not for me, though. Others might get that chance, but me with my damn guilty conscience. Maybe I'm just fussy about that kind of thing. That, or I've yet to meet a practical female in a decent age range. My morals are just too different. My thinking and morals would have been greet during the Tokugawa Shogunate, but in modern-day America? Nah, why train when you can shoot a gun? Why care for someone when you can get laid? Why handle things personally, we have lawyers to do that now! (Don't mind me, I think it's just a bad mood set off from frustration and constant irritation. It's nothing personal, I just know you could handle my ramblings XD)

She's a good martial artist, and I think at one point her views might have been pure. But the almighty dollar corrupted her. She can be a good instructor, but she's too greedy.

DA and fanfiction are two sites who have the weirdest mix of good and bad reps. If you're talented, great. If you're not so talented, then you get eaten alive. I just don't see the allure :\

Yesh, he ish very nice ^-^ And he's done a really good job with helping me feel better about my art.
I've only had one drawing made for me -scratches my head- But I've been making a ton of them for other people lately..
Oh yeah it's no problem commenting ^^ I'm not great at it, but oh well, hehe.
Wow really? -ish flattered- That's very nice of you! I'm not crazy about my style, but, I guess what's important is that at least some people like it ^^ That in and of itself should make me feel very happy.

I don't think anyone is born, say, a murderer. Something in their experience makes them that way. But even they, they don't HAVE to be a murderer- they could have NOT killed. So there's really only two ending points. Either view, the people in question aren't 100% at fault. We're all born with clean slates, imho. It's life that shapes up.

I have no optimism in this school, really. It's all a pipe dream until I can almost make it a reality. And the future. Heh, it's a gamble for me. It's like betting your life savings at the casino. You might come up 'Craps', or you might come up s***s. And there are some things that you don't get later in life. Innocent relationships, pure motives...to think of what I've missed. No wonder I have no confidence. I shouldn't be commended for aiming for the future- that's the only option I've got.
On a funny side note, the big cheese at the dojo took a swipe at me and my Dad. We didn't say anything, but two senseis confronted me. I think I killed their egos. It was the day of a black belt test and I couldn't stay (Wouldn't if I could- five hours of watching underserving people? nah, not my cuppa tea), so she kind of got snippy. The two senseis brought it up, and they said 'well, she treats her black belts that way, too.' Immediatly, I shot back with 'well then, you won't see me as a karate black belt for her then. I've got enough s*** in my life. I don't need her to pull that. It's called 'be courteous'."

I prob wouldn't have said that, but I was just in a really foul mood. The looks on their faces were hysterical, though. They couldn't believe that anyone would not get in line to kiss this woman's @$$.

Glad you two are around, it would be damn lonely here if you weren't :D
Everyone left because of either college or DA. I don't get the big allure that DA has. I just don't see it.

Not too much different than me, in that regard. I think we can be good or evil, and we can take multiple paths to get there. Also that we're guided along the way.

I'm hoping to have my own school by next August, provided I've tested in June. And that's only one art, though, so it'll be limited. But I'm going to add more arts, the more I do.

Yes, but I've sacrificed any of the fun. Any kind of teenage romance, being anything like a normal kid...sometimes I wish I hadn't thought only of the future and lived for the moment.

All the people (minus NPG) who helped me learn to draw just kind of up and split. Midnight_Chaos, Jo_Pen, MitchelP. Flashthehedgehog (who, along with Keiko, were two of my first readers) is only here once in a while. The only one really left is MrGimp.

Tell Jenny I said 'Hi', then. Don't want her to feel left out!

I'm sorry to hear about all that mistfortune. Things will get better, though. I'm not a huge believer in an ultimate fate (more like you can choose your roads), but it has a way of working itself out. Think of how your life has improved since our first talks. I find it hard to imagine you and I are only a few months apart in age sometimes, simply because you've got your life together, while I've really only got 'plans'. You've got a solid foundation, and you've got time to build on that. And knowing you, you will.

It's alright, we can't all think of everything at once. I was too stupid to explain what I meant in better detail about the martial arts. Besides, you've got a lot on your mind.

That vid is catchy! And Shakugan no Shana is pretty cool. Nice find!

Now that your net works, I should be able to finally catch up with you. It's been strange on FAC lately. I swear, just about everyone I knew when I first joined have just up and left. I've met some new people, but it's still kind of weird without the others around. One was my main source of advice, too! Between her and NPG, I learned to actually make my drawings look vaguely like...something! lol.

Anyway, catch you on FAC sometime. Give my best to Jenny. And you take care, too.

Yeah NG suggested I comment you so I could get more comments on my art also ^^
Well I've just seen gifts made for you and comments you've given, so I was considering contacting you anyway.
I'll be sure to comment on some of your art! -giggles-
Wow you really think I'm that good o//o -ish flattered- Thank you! ^^' I dunno I tend to beat myself up about my art a little, because I don't think I'm as good as NPG. She and NG claim that I am just as good as her, but I don't know -shrugs- So I kinda struggle with that.

Hey A1! I've actually heard a lot about you and I was actually gonna comment on some of your art just now O.O" NG recommended doing so ^^ And I've heard about you from Neopetgirl I think also...she's my best friend! ^_^
-claps excitedly- It's nice to meet a new person here, I've actually been wanting to meet you for a while ^-^
Woooooow you're art's incredible! You're really good!
You think my art's amazing? O_o Woa...thank you so much! ^//^ Really though, I'm rather new at it. I just started this year. Not like you though...you're awesome! O.O

Internet people tend to give me headaches, too. Like when I have a problem, and I get connected to a guy in India I can barely understand.

Sure, things'll get better. Well, for you anyway, lol. Me, I'm not so sure. things between me and the dojo have never been so shaky. Couple that with the usual work BS, and you've got a guy who would most likely enjoy a fight right now, lol.

You two take care. I'll catch you both online sometime. (Perhaps my sword might be convincing to the internet company? lol, jk, if YOU haven't scared them...)

Oops, my bad, I thought it was a seperate rank you picked up for the hell of it or something, lol.