scooter_girl_Haruko

Sup.

lolol! POWER TO PORN!!!

the weird thing is, before it never hurt. it was just like there. and you could only see a lump if i raised my arm up and made you feel it. the doctor said even though it feels like it's the size of a golf ball, it's actually the size of a base ball on the inside LOL. which was weird and gross.

no it was worse.it was one of those surgeries where you go in and then leave that day. i was fine till i got up to change into my clothes, and i lost my sight and hearing, and i became really really nauseas and dizzy. they said it was because my blood pressure dropped. i remember the nurse lady was like "mayeb you should lay down..." and i said "I JUST WANT TO GET THE frack HOME!" llololololol. it really sucked. the next few days were really bad, like i couldn't really eat solids, and i could only stand up and walk around for maybe 10 minutes and then i would get the dizzy feeling agian. and only move like one side of my body..lol.

yea! that's what i was kinda talking about lol.
like i wanted to do ads and stuff for sites and industries. XD
i bet the people reading these comments are like "wtf?" lolololollool.
yea i have all these ideas, but i don't have like the insipiration to do well in school LOL.

actually, yea that's what they think it is but they are not sure.they think it's a granular cell tumor, which is really rare, and even more rare where they found it on me. they thought it was in the left boob, but it was actually on top of the ribs, which is why the recovery was hell because they made the incision on the wrong spot and had to dig through muscle and stuff. T.T
thanks, it was hell, but it's over now. :D

umm i'm not sure. they're is a bunch of things that i kinda want to be when i get older. like: bartender, comic artist, childrens book author, pychotherapist, fetish expert (i don't know what you would call it, i want to study the pssychological effects of certain fetishes people have...kinda of like a sex therapist? i don't know), and something having to do with the porn industry(LMAO i don't want to be a porn star, there's other parts in the indutry than just actresses and stuff. i don't have enough guts nor would i want to be in the movies XD).

i can't decide!!! maybe i'll do all of them. (jk..that's crazy..and i don't want to go to college for 3759549x years)


ummm well. i had something in my body that wasn't sopposed to be there... 0.o and they took it out. they don't know what it is so they sent it to harvard LOL. but they are like 97% sure it's not cancerous or anything because i'm really healthy and i'm too young.

i just went through a lot of hell because of the surgery and stuff. but it's all over now. it's still swollen but there's no pain.

godamn...that was a long comment. -_-;

yea when i go, i don't want to live with anybody. me and my close friends want to get a place together. but where i want to go, you can get the dorm rooms for yourself, but i bet you have to be like a straight "a" student...and i'm far from that...lol.

do you know what you're majoring in? or are you just gonna try and get the basics done first?

Ghhhaaahh I read your blog(finally, I'm reading people's bogs. Emails should tell us when friends make/update a new blog). I hope you got through whatever what was making you feel so terrible. I've found that when I feel emotionally numb like that- it's because I've been though some recent trauma, and there is so much going on in my life that I refuse to cry and throw a tantrum over it anymore- I just want to ENDURE IT, and that's why my brain just lets go of bad things like that.

However, now I know that it is best to get out of the numb stage and try to reflect on what exactly makes me feel that way, because if I stay that way, I'm basically just running away from reality. It's better to be a happy feeling person who goes through bad things than an unfeeling person who tries to not face the bad stuff and just let it pile up.

^If the above does not make sense at all, I understand. ;__; My grammar makes it worst. LOL.

HOLY CRUD! You buy chicken livers???!! Everyone thinks it's nasty, but it's nOT! D:< BAH! No worries, I wear boys clothes a lot, and my friend said that I should have just been born a cute little asian boy. ;P

Oh I see

You're welcome.

I meant what does procrastinate mean?

np^^