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Good, thanks. I read your thingy up there. Funny! xD

Playing a bit of ffx. What's up on your end?

I thought you might like that. There really wasn't much of a relationship between Amy and Dan, and I didn't want to do a complete Odo/Quark thing, so that's what I wound up with.

Working on my Japanese tonight. Translating a manga. I suck at this, lol. But it's fun. And I'm working a bit more on 'Serving'.

I'm actually dipping into the AuRikku fanfiction pool tonight. AuronXRikku (a pairing from FFX) has long been one of my favorite pairings, but I just never did bother until tonight. xD

Cool. Have a good time!

I definitely am! xD

Damn it, I cannot translate this page! Agh! So frustrating!

I should read something relaxing, too.

xD Well, I wouldn't call what I'm reading "relaxing"...

Stimulating, then? ;) I doubt that would hurt me, either

Lol.

This is the one I'm almost done with atm.

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3976987/1/The_Airship

Coo. I'll take a look in a minute. Just finishing up my latest translating efforts. Blah, I can't focus tonight!

^cool. Should say 'cool'. blah again.

Lol. It be coo, brudda.

Maybe that'll be my word from now on, lol. Coo.

Hey, hey, what's this? You're behind on Serving! Shame on you! I feel like you cheated on me- reading someone else's fics! (Big, fake crying face) How...how could you?! (sniffle, sob)

lmao, sorry. It's been one of those weird days XD

:O (looks horribly guilty) No, baby, this isn't what it looks like! I can explain...

No! We're done! Done! You've made it perfectly clear that FF is your new...damn it, don't make me say it! Take your mouse back and go! (Throws mouse at you)

Baby, please! I promise I'll always read your fanfics first from now on! (tears start to form) I didn't mean to, honest! (falls to knees with big, puppy-dog face) Please give me one more chance!

...Fine. One more chance. But blow this, and we're done! We're DONE! (Helps you up) No tears, 'kay? Now go read those fics! (Swats you on the butt)

I've got to go afk for a bit. I'll be back, though!

(Crosses arms indignantly) Try that again, mister, and you may be missing those fingers soon.

Commented!

Awww. And here I was hoping for make-up sex XD

Thanks! All is forgiven!

I didn't say anything about no make-up sex. I merely protested at the spanking!

Damn straight! ;)

Oh, well then, that's a different story!

Lol. Glad you liked the chapters at any rate.

When and where, then!

xD You're welcome.

Here and now!

So, any new ideas for DS9?

Where is "here"? Be more specific.

xD Honestly, I haven't thought of DS9 all summer.

Hmmm...good question. My sense of direction is pretty bad, so I don't know where 'here' is. How about I just come to you? XD

That's okay, I was just curious. It was on the back burner for me, too. But I imagine I'll come back from the ST convention brimming with ideas.

Well, it's about 2 and 1/2 hours east of Dallas...

xD No doubt.

Sounds like a good plan.

Let's see...besides turning red and sputtering apologies, he would probably say something like "Well, uh, I didn't exactly mind it, either. (Nervous laugh) Um, feel free to grab mine, or something...(another nervous laugh)."

xD I've decided. It's one of my goals in life to see you get flustered like that. xDDD

It won't take much effort on your end, believe me XD

Lol what would you do if she took your hand and slid it under her shirt so it was skin-to-skin contact?

I think I might even get the hint at that point and kind of slide in closer, putting my other hand on top of hers.

xD Would you? Or would you chicken out, blushing furiously? ;)

If she started it, I would probably be okay. If I trusted her. Then again, if I'm teaching her how to shoot, I would probably trust her enough to not cry 'pervert'. But I wouldn't make that kind of contact without a prompt.

That also begs the question- do you know enough about shooting to be able to teach someone? xD

I'm not an expert by any means, but I know the basics. Well, that depends on the weapons. With a standard rifle or shotgun, I'd be okay. I only know about pistols from reading, but I'm pretty sure I could figure it out. But you get into sniper rifles and the like, I'm not good.

Did you know that pupil dilation is a tell for knowing whether or not someone is interested in you? I just found that out a couple days ago.

I didn't know that. Huh, that's cool. Now that I can make some eye contact...cool!

http://ifaguylikesyou.com/2011/05/how-to-know-if-a-guy-likes-you-and-what-to-do-about-it-must-read/#more-443

Also, be aware of some body language signs that he may like you. I’m talking about the small signs, and if you notice some of them, you can be a step closer to being sure that he likes you. Those signs are: pupil dilation (his pupils dilate when talking to a person he likes – scientifically proven, but hard to catch), blushing (his face may turn red if you give him a compliment or say something unexpectedly pleasuring to him), body position (when you talk to him, if he turns his whole body in your direction, and not just the head), touching an hugging…

(Also, here's something to look for when you're on a date with a girl.)

1) Look him in the eyes

2) Look at his lips

3) Look at his eyes again + SMILE

4) Move in


And he will also move in and kiss you.

I always figured there was some kind of unwritten process. I'm glad somebody wrote it up, actually! It's much less nerve wracking if two people can match the right signs imho.

xD

Well, I think I may use this this weekend. We're probably going back up there if my cousin is still in the hospital, so I'm going to see if I can arrange for another date. And who knows? I may get a kiss! (woot for me!!)

Hey, if the guy can read the signs (make it obvious; the majority of us are stupid, lol), then you might very well score that kiss! And maybe more, you never know!

Lol this is a boy scouts Christian guy. I don't think I'll get much more than a kiss anytime soon. xD

I dunno. Every guy has his breaking point. You might just be too much to resist, you never know ;)
Either way, more power to you!

xD well, there's the problem of nowhere for us to be truly alone...

That does present an issue. Unless you can get everyone else away somehow. Then again, it can't be too hard to sneak a kiss. If it was the whole nine yards, then I'm not sure what to say.

Cool, enjoy ^^ I can't wait to hear what you think.

Also: http://yahoo.match.com/y/article.aspx?articleid=11862&TrackingID=526103&BannerID=680231

I love articles like this. I know they're not for me, but it does explain a lot!

So, the story of the story:

I was talking to my school counselor (college level; this is recent) about various things. You know, careers, classes, etc. He asked me 'well, are you seeing anyone? Any girls in your life?'

I was feeling particulary melancholy, so I responded in kind:

Me: My time for romance has passed.

C: (blinks in shock) What do you mean?

Me: I didn't get the sweet, innocent childhood romance. I don't have the childhood friend who I'll grow up to marry. Hell, all the girls I knew as a child either got knocked up, are in a religious cult, or are ugly as sin, if they didn't do drugs (true story!). Adult romances suck anyway. Beyond sex, what is there? Two people who hate each other get married on a whim because of a vague attraction or, in my case, some Italian relatives dropping hints. Either way, you get married, hate your spouse, have a kid, and train him to do the same thing. I think i'd prefer a daughter, by the way. But what the hell, get married so you can hurry up and get divorced and have your ex-wife take everything, including your testicles. If you're smart enough to avoid that fate, you still date someone you rarely see outside of work .There's no 'let's go for a walk in the woods' or 'hey, the beach! Oops, saw your tits! "Oh, you jerk! I see your dick! Now we're even! Let's kiss sweetly'. No, it's "wanna get some food after work". Best case scenario: "Yes". Worst caseL "No, I'm too tired". Now THERE is romance, my friend. Great stuff, isn't it?

Commented! And lol at the link. I also read somewhere that the way to a guy's heart is through fantastic oral sex.

What did your counselor say to that monologue?

lmao, there's that, too. Unless you get a guy like me that is absolutely paranoid of AIDS and the like, and will insist on a blood test first, lmao. (starting to see why I'm single?)

I'm terrified of being asked out sometimes. How do you let someone down gently, especially when there's a really awkward reason for not liking them back?

Well, actually, there was a little more to it. It's less interesting, but:

Counselor: Well, that's certainly a fatalistic way to think. Why do you think that?

Me: Single. 22. No redeeming qualities. I mean, I'm into manga/comics, Star Trek, and fanfiction. That's the f***ing virgin trifecta for guys!

Counselor: (Looks up his schedule on his computer) I think we should meet again. How's next week for you?

Me: You aren't going to change me. It's going to take a girl for that. Preferably a mix of goth and Japanese, I think. Unless you've got Terry Farell's phone number?

Counselor: (literal facepalm) You'd be a great standup comic.

Me: I was thinking lifecoach. You know, the ones who talk people down from the buildings before they jump...

Well, say something like, "you know, you're really nice, but I'd rather we were just friends." if they demand an explanation either be frank and say "i'm just not into you," or say "i'm not looking for a relationship right now." Even if that last bit's a lie. xD

Lmao I think I like your counselor.

Makes sense. I've never been good with lying.

Oh, so to answer your comment on that fic:

Yes, pretty depressing. I had a day like that (except for the last part, sadly enough), and just jotted it down and added some more detail. I don't know if I'll add more. I'll have to have another melancholy day, I think. I loved the ending, too. Wish a girl would try that on me. It would totally work!

I put the poor guy through the wringer. College annoys me. Poor guy. He's right on the front line. He's a nice guy who tries his best. But I'm a lost cause, lol.

I'm going to get going for the night. Good talking with you, as always!

I'm sorry to hear that. I hope he fares well.

Hey, congrats. How did it go, if I can ask? Pardon me for being late/absent lately. Odd past few nights.

It went really well. He and I are very compatible, and there's only a one year difference. He's very "boy next door." Not at all like the man I kissed while intoxicated. Lol.

I'm really happy for you :) I take it you're seeing him again? (If that's not prying? If it is, feel free to tell me where to stick my concern!)

I hope so, but it won't be for a while. Nah, not prying!

Either way, glad it went well for you ^^

Blah, need to hit submit --'

Me too. He's so sweet. He's really easy to get along with, and I never once felt awkward around him. And when he and I were talking, he looked at me like I was the only person in the world. I've never had a guy look at me like that before.

That's one of the first things I was taught about dating: Put the girl on a pedestal. Make her a goddess. Sounds like this dude has his act together.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaack a cockroach just crawled on meeeeeee. X___X

And yes. I'm not sure if it's just part of his personality to be like that or what. But I felt seriously special. I'm thinking by the second date, I'll probably get a kiss. With a little proverbial nudge here and there.

Oh, that sucks. I'm not good with bugs when they come near me.

That's really awesome! Good for you! I'm glad you've got somebody nice ^^

Lol I bet you scream like a little girl.

Well, I don't "got" him yet! It was just 1 date.

Only when they get on me ;) I have a bad tendency to simply kill them. Except spiders. Unless they've bitten me, they get a free pass outside.

Pff, semantics.

I spaz out when bugs get on me. Screaming, jumping, flailing, the works.

Lol I love you sometimes. xD

I'm super paranoid now. Every brush of fabric against me feels like a bug. My headphones keep tickling my wrist and it feels like a bug. xD

Killing is much more efficient, though XD

Well, thank you ^^ Glad I can help.

I completely get that. I swear, when I came home and saw some ants in my room one day, I couldn't even sleep in my room for two full days. I've got a special phobia about ants, thanks to a fun little incident from childhood. lol. I hate those things.

His mom invited me to spend the night in their guest room whenever. The "omg I think I saw a bug" excuse would be perfect to get me in his bed, or vis versa. ;)

Oh? Spill it!

Yeah, there you go. It can't miss!

Nothing much to it. I was playing on the driveway, and I picked up a roof tile. Under it was a whole slew of ants, and they fell all over me. I could hear them moving and making these creepy little sounds. So I panicked, shook them off, and ran like hell. Lol, I might have actually streaked, being so desperate to get them off me.

Lol would that work on you?

Aww, poor baby. Lol at you streaking.

I'm the kind of idiot who would miss the point and go charging in with a rolled up magazine or a shoe to go kill the scary bugs. It wouldn't occur to me to just slide over and make room if I'm honest.

It was funny ^^ Except the ants. The streaking was fun. Too bad it's illegal to do it intentionally.

Well, the girl would be like "eeeek!" And you'd come running in to see who was trying to murder her. She'd be up on top of the bed, whimpering and pointing to whatever corner the bug disappeared to.

"I just saw like, a huge cockroach crawling across my bedspread!!! I don't think I can sleep in this bed anymore. Could I... could I stay with you for tonight?"

Well, is it a complete turnoff if I run in carrying a weapon?

But at that point, I might finally figure it out and be like 'yeah, sure. Why don't you go get comfortable and let me get you a cup of tea or something'.

Lol actually that would be super cute. A valiant knight ready to defend his princess.

See? Perfect. This plan is flawless. Unlesssssssss my scream wakes the mom up. Then she'll make me sleep with her.

Cute? I could see 'creepy'. But cute? I'd love that reaction to something I do normally, lol.

Yeah, that would be a buzzkill.

Well, at least you came prepared to defend yourself and your girl. I think it's cute!

Fair enough. I love that image myself, really ^^It's nice to be needed. Now if only Emma Watson or Olivia Wilde would need me...
Heh-loh, back to earth.

I'm almost done with another DS9 oneshot. This one is blatantly about romance.

Both very hot women.

Oh, is it my RQ? :D

Indeed ^^ I just recently got into the Harry potter movies. Emma was cute as a kid, too. I read the books, though, despite not being too into magic.

Actually, not this one (thought that's in progress, too). This is a story I had about 90% finished. I just felt like tying up some loose ends tonight.

Personally, I just want someone to snuggle with in bed. The... other... stuff would just be an awesome perk.

I forgot what I even requested. XD

Say, are you a fan of D. Grey Man at all?

For future reference, how tall are you?

I have no idea who that is...

I'm about 5'9" or 5'10" at the moment. Still growing, though, according to the doctor.

Oh, it's an anime/manga. I think I linked you the opening before.

2 1/2 to 3 inches taller than me. Hmm.

I think I forgot to watch it...

I'm really short, lol.

No biggie. Here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1v7e4qCwc0

Check the girl at 40 secs in. She looks alot like one of the new girls who's going to be in serving soon. I'm about to update that one again. I think I said that last night, too, but I never did.

Well as long as you're taller than me xD

She's cute. I don't think I read the most recent chapter of serving.

lol. Although I'm totally fine with girls being taller than me if they can deal with me being shorter. Dax is taller than me, so...

I love the pigtails, melancholy expression, and goth sort of look.

(Checks comments) No, you didn't. Shame! jk- you've had a lot going on.

Pardon me if my spelling gets a little erratic. I just had a major anxiety attack. But I was kind of expecting it, so it wasn't as bad as it could have been ^^

I'm so sorry. I've only had minor ones, but the small ones are unpleasant, so I can imagine how you feel. Are you all right?

I'm okay. It's just scary for a while. Mine usually play on my fear of vomiting, so I'll get stomach aches, my throat will tighten up, and I'll get weak. But I've had chest pains, loss of feeling in my shins and forearms (weird one, apparently), trouble breathing, dizziness, feelings of despair (had that one tonight, too).

But I'm okay, thank you ^^ Or I will be. I'll get over it.

Sounds like you need some company.

That would be nice, lol. Sucking on things is supposed to cure it, so...ugh. No male company, please XD
Although that much is real. If you feel anxious, get a hard candy or a sucker. It absolutely helps. Also, anything with pepperminet. Gum, mints, mentos- all helpful. And green tea for the stomach.

xDDD I hope it would help if the other party were doing the sucking... xD

I'll keep that in mind.

IT certainly wouldn't hurt! lol, well sex releases all kinds of interesting endorphins. And I'd imagine it'd be damn distracting to just start having sex during an anxiety attack. Haven't tried that one yet.
On the flipside, though, the girl would have to be incredibly understanding, especially if this screwed up a date or something. you know me- I'm the type who would absolutely make it up, all while agonizing over it.

Thaks for keeping me company, btw. IF you need to go to bed, whenever you do, please feel free. I'm over it now.

And Serving has been updated. Yay! lol.

Well, look me up if you're ever in town and start to feel anxious. xD even without the last qualifying factor, even! XDD

Hey, no problem. You've been there for me. And believe it or not, I'm not just in it for the sex!

Lol, I will. You're one of the few people I've met online that I would be cool with meeting in person.

lmao! Well, I'm glad I can help, and you're also a big help.

What do you think? Do I need to drop my "I want a relationship' mindset and just aim for a quick lay?

Well, I was looking at more than just meeting ;)

Anything I can do.

Well, whatever you're comfortable with. Honestly I think the "I want a relationship" is something that sets you apart. Most girls are in it for the "long haul,"- meaning longer than 2 or 3 hours.

Okay, I'm booking the next flight out! XD

The discussion helps in a big way ^^

I admit that I want a relationship, but I'm worried about being overwhelmed at first. I'd like to be friends first, and the kind of gradually work up to really getting close. If that makes any sense.

Oh, I meant to ask 2 things:

-Would you be interested if I wrote an add-on to 'Serving' about Yuji and Miko's life together?

-Could I finagle you into drawing Azami some time down the line?

Wait until Monday. I'll actually be home then.

Yeah, I understand.

Yes, that'd be cool!

Already on my list!! xD

Okay, sounds good. How's dinner sound before we go to a hotel?

I'm glad. Because I barely do, lol.

Awesome! I might just do that, then.

Thanks so much!

Aw, damn. I thought you were serious. :(

I would seriously visit when I could, if that was okay. I thought you were kidding! But I would totally visit. That would be cool.

Damn my rotten luck. Well, at least I wouldn't make you spend the nights in a hotel. My bed is plenty big enough for two.

lol, sounds tempting! Very tempting indeed!

Well, I've got to go for the night. My anxiety adrenaline wore off all at once, and now I'm falling asleep. Thank you so much for keeping me company. I really do appreciate it :)

Unfortunately, there isn't much to say. Just one little annoyance after another. My buddy was supposed to come over tomorrow, but cancelled. I was supposed to apply for a new job tomorrow, but there's a doctor's appointment instead, which will officially put me out of the running. And it's almost time for my college bill to come in the mail. It kills me to pay those bastards. On top of all that, I'm still single with no prospects and I have zero self respect. shoot. Maybe I need to start giving Yuji some luck. Maybe it's karma or something for mistreating him -_-'

Oh well. How was your day?

Hey, you're an amazing guy. You're smart, funny, sweet. You're an amazing listener, and are always up for a challenge. Your flirting skills are on the up, and you're fun to talk to. I'm sure you're cute, too, though I have no tangible proof of that. If you can't find a girl, it's because you're either not looking in the right places or you just aren't meant to find her yet. I'd jump at the chance to date a guy like you. You appreciate and respect women like most men nowadays don't. Don't let it get you down.

My day was fine, but that's not important.

That's kind of you. Put a smile on my face for the first time today. I think I just need a good bout with self-pity and I'll be ok.The job thing was the hardest to swallow. I mean, it fit me perfectly. The only thing that worries me is that I can usually manage my stress just fine. I normally don't talk about it. So I must have been really bugged to even mention it.

It's important to me. If you didn't have a good day, I wouldn't keep ranting. Jk- I do actually like to know my friends are happy ^^

I mean every word. If you weren't so far away I'd make you come over right now. Can't you skip the appointment?

Well, you had the worse day, so you take priority. I didn't have a bad day though. I mean, it wasn't GOOD, but it wasn't bad. Just an average day. xD

If the appointment was for me, I would. But it's for my Grandma. And God help us, if we put my career over the fact that there's nothing wrong with her but what's in her head, I would never hear the end of it. She's got anxiety like I do, but she makes no effort to control it and then critizes me if I have an issue. --'

I'd take 'average' at this point. I think I'm in a rut or something. when 'bad' becomes 'average' then you need to worry, lol.

What do you think of this for a fic's centerpiece:
-Yuji spanks Azami out of nowhere. She stops him, hikes up her skirt and slips her panties off, then tells him to continue?

-Yuji loses a bet and has to be Sakura's maid for a week. Like, literal crossdressing maid. But it'll end well for him.

But yeah. I'd make you come over. I'd definitely make you feel better. ;)

Well, can't you reschedule the interview? Or at least tell them you'll be late.

XDD that would be interesting to say the least.

Lmao. They actually had that as a narusasu doujin on youtube. XD

speaking of that, where are your fics at? More Hisako please!

Had a long, tiring day. Happy to be relaxing now. Annoyed that I can't %**(ing draw!

What's up tonight?

Not much. Just chillin'. And trying to find the power cord to my laptop. It seems to have made a break for freedom. -_-'

I have a wedding to go to in a day, and I don't have a dress yet! I have to go to JCPenney's tomorrow.

lol. I'm sorry. The way you said that was funny. The situation isn't it.

Do you like weddings?

It was meant to, lol.

It depends on who's getting married, I guess. Because that entails a certain kind of people attending. I'm kind of excited because of WHO'S getting married. Do you follow basketball? ( I can't remember if I've talked to you about this or not, so bear with me.)

I figured, but I also figured it was best to clarify what I meant. Old habit because of this overly emotional friend I used to have.

I can understand that. And I don't follow basketball at all, sorry.

Ah. Totally understand.

My cousin is marrying the #1 draft pick in the nation's brother. He plays for the phoenix suns, if that means anything to you. Some of the team will be there. I'm kind of excited.

Yep. Avoided a lot of trouble by stating what is apparently obvious. lol

Hey, cool! Congrats to your cousin (And you, for that matter!)

True enough!

I know, right? My only thing is that I have to go buy a new dress tomorrow.

I don't know why, but I've always enjoyed wearing suits and ties and the like. I liked school uniforms, too (no, the girls did not dress cute. Private school uniforms and the supposed advantage they give you are highly overrated, at least in the US). Weird.

Know what kind of dress you're going to get? Not that I have any clue there, lol.

Oh don't get me wrong. I love dressing up. It's just taking the time to actually go and purchase it. You also have to try it onn, and find matching jewelry... and shoes...

Not for certain, although I was in there the other day and one caught my eye...

It looked either like this:
http://www.jcpenney.com/jcp/X6.aspx?GrpTyp=PRD&ItemID=1c649e9&CF=Black&DeptID=70656&CatID=80145&SO=1&SelDim=1031~&x5view=1&NOffset=0&Ne=4294957900+29+3+8+1031+1066+18+904+833+949&N=4294936942+4294949520&Nao=84&PSO=1&CmCatId=70656|80145

Or like this:
http://www.jcpenney.com/jcp/X6.aspx?Grptyp=PRD&ItemId=1a7115e&cmOrigId=1c649e9&cmTypeFlag=RichRel&cmCatID=70656|80145

I forgot that it's a bigger thing for girls. My biggest issue is polishing my shoes. I never get them to look perfect.

Those are nice! But they'd make my butt look big. Probably okay on you, though! ;)

xD Sorry, I didn't get the email that said you'd commented until like, 5 minutes ago.

Lmao waiiit, you HAVE a butt? Aren't you like, a stick? Probably okay on me, since that dress is made for slightly curvy women, and I am indeed slightly curvy. ;)

S'okay.

Oh, sure I do. It's a sexy little thing. Wanna see it? XD

XD I have ruined you to the core.

Btw I got that dress! It fits like a dream.

lol, I think you have :D

Glad to hear it!

Say, I'm curious- which ST opening is your favorite?

That's a tough question. But I think Enterprise, then TNG, then Voyager.

Voyager and DS9 are tied for me, then enterprise, then TNG, then TOS. I love how adventerous Voyager sounds and how epic (not like, 'cool' epic, but epic epic, if you get what I mean).

Question- do you think Serving has gone on too long?

I get what you mean. xD

Well, most fanfics are definitely not this long. But I don't think it feels like you're just dragging it on, if that makes sense. It's like, the 7th Harry Potter book- she didn't MEAN for it to be that big, it just was. And it worked just fine.

I'm glad, because I know I didn't articulate that well.

True enough. That's what I really wanted to know. As long as it's still making sense and doesn't seem forced, good.

xD Poetic grace of a platypus. It's quite alright. ;)

Yup.

I'll have to send you a pic of the dress in action! It's so pretty.

lol, only in conversation!

Cool. Glad you found something you liked.

XD suuuuure.

This is where you're supposed to either say how good you're sure I'll look in it, or offer to send me a pic of you in similarly dressy clothes. ;)

Lol, really.

Why would I need to state the obvious? ;)
And I don't look all that good in a skirt, so I can't really offer that... XD

Mmhmm..... suuuure.

It's always good to do a bit of ego stroking when it comes to women.
And lol I meant the male equivalent!

True enough. I always feel fake when I'm giving a compliment like that. Like the other person won't believe me or something, even when I'm being totally sincere.

Oh. Right. lol. XD I knew what you meant. I don't have any decent pics atm, but when I take one I'll send it to you.

I think so. You totally caught me offguard.

(evil grin; repeates the phrase in a perfect Bashir voice) Is that better? And if you're going to smack, then we need to get out the handcuffs and whips.

To some degree. But I also love the concept of a couple against the rest of the world (ala every single fic I've ever done for Naruto XD)

I'm actually surprised you didn't think I'd go through with it.

I think I could get used to you as a Brit. And that raises the question... who's getting handcuffed?

XD cute.

I know. I underestimated you. My mistake.

(holds wrists out) Need you ask?

I suppose so. Although, per Azami, there is something to be said for the bdsm end.

I do hope you won't be making that mistake again. ;)

If you've come to be handcuffed, you came to the wrong girl. (Wags finger)

Maybe to an extent. I dunno though. My ex boyfriend was a bdsm sadist. Well, is. But every thought of bdsm makes me think of him, so it kind of turns my stomach. Not to say I wouldn't like it rough now and then! Just maybe a bit less on the kinky side. XD

Nope. I've learned my lesson XD

(Tosses the handcuffs away and tackles you) Okay. No trouble there. Tell me...what next? (smirk)

I definitely prefer the woman to take charge, at least sometimes. The firs time would be great, so I can kind of gauge what she likes. I would say it's probably more difficult to please a woman. We men are simple, lol. Plus, there's kinda only one spot to concentrate on with guys, until you get back to BDSM.

I'm actually surprised you've held out this long!

Well, perhaps the bed would be a better place to continue than the floor...

I'll let you in on a little secret. It's really not that much more difficult. Women are aroused in most of the same areas that men are. Probably more, actually, making your job easier. xD. Taking charge now and then is fine. Something about relinquishing, or taking, all control just bothers me for some reason.

Lol. Hey, I'm new here! XD

Fair enough. Cannonball! (Jumps onto the bed)

Ah, that makes sense. still indimidating as hell. girls have way more complex plumbing, though.
I think I'm just really open minded about that sort of thing at this point. Kind of like a kid in a candy store; I want everything. Except total control. That I don't like. But I don't mind giving the control up. At least in theory.

It was a compliment! Not a jibe.

So sorry for running off last night- I fell asleep.

How are you tonight?

It's okay; I was almost asleep myself.

I'm okay. How about you?

Pretty good. Started watching star trek insurrection, but the power cut out halfway through. Anything exciting to report?

Oh, that sucks!

Not really. Was messing around with our co-op fic a bit, to see if any storylines hit me. Beyond that, not much.

(Suggestive tone) What sucks?

Oh? Any good ideas so far?

lol, I think you know (wink)

A few for much later in the story. For our current place, I've got about 7 that I've already told you about. I'm still thinking, though. I keep getting distracted by Serving. I'm right in the middle of a really intense part, and I don't want to stop writing, but my ideas aren't any good.

(Looks all innocent) I'm afraid you'll have to enlighten me. (Bites lower lip)

Which reminds me I need to get back on top of DS9. I've been sacking, what with the move and all.

How about you hazard a guess. I'll give you a hint: It would really suck if you punched it instead...

That's totally understandable. You've got a lot going on.

(Frowns, slightly bemused) But wouldnt that be true for any part of your body?

Lol true, but neglect is neglect!

Not necessarily, but I digress. Okay: I have it and you don't...I hope (eyebrows up, goofy grin)

(Shrug) It happens. No biggie.

(Finally catches on) Well, feel free to make that observation for yourself.

Lol. So what's coming up this month? Anything momentous?

Well, it's my birthday a month from now. That's about it, though.

Oh, here. I've got a storyline I might make into a full fic, but is scrapped for now. I forgot that I wrote this:



Dax liked the gamma shift. It was so calm and peaceful compared to the hectic day shift hours. The pleasant, quiet hums of machinery and computers working had the effect of a technological waterfall sound. It was sort of like a Zen thing in the steel confines of the space station.

With the lights dimmed in time with the earth clock that they had all grown accustomed to, the subtle blues, reds, and greens coming from the various consoles matched the overall relaxed feeling of the station.

OPS was quiet this time of night, empty of Bajoran and Starfleet personnel alike, save for a skeleton maintenance crew that Chief O’Brien on duty around the clock for the eventual breakdown of some piece of equipment. This Cardassian-built space station wasn’t in the best of shape, thanks to its former occupants trashing its before they left.

Dax had just started to close her eyes and exhale when the sound of the turbolift reached her ears. She turned from her station to see who was coming at such a late hour. She was surprised to see Ensign Holmes stepping off the turbolift.

“Good evening, Daniel,” Dax commented amiably, offering a smile of greeting. “What brings you here? Aren’t you off duty?”

For a moment, Holmes considered telling her the real reason he’d come. For some reason, even though he was new here, he felt like he could trust these people. Here he was thinking of telling Dax, whom he’d only known for short while, one of his greatest secrets. He was tempted, yes, but he wasn’t quite ready to tell her just what was going on.
“I guess I’ve got a bit of insomnia, so I thought I’d catch up on some work. If you’re really relishing your quiet time, I can take it with me back to my quarters. Although Bashir would have a fit.”

Dax cocked her head, a question in her tone of voice. “Julian? Why would he mind?”

Holmes tried to make sure that he was sounding believable. He wasn’t entirely lying, he convinced himself as he said:
“If you have insomnia, you aren’t supposed to stay where your bed is. It’s some psychological thing,” he told her, waving a hand in the air to convey he didn’t understand the subtleties.

“Oh, that’s right. It’s a way to train your mind that when you see your bed, it’s time to go to sleep. That way you don’t associate any other thoughts with your bed.”

“Yeah, that was it. Let me guess -” Holmes grinned, deciding to try his hand at playful joking,“ Curzon was a sleepwalker?”

Jadzia gave him a friendly smile, enjoying the banter. “No, actually it was Tobin. He knew his way around an engine room, but when it came to girls… God, he used to get so nervous that when one paid attention to him he couldn’t sleep or even eat if he had any feeling toward her at all.”

Holmes actually stopped dead. That sounded so much like himself. He would be a fool to let this opportunity go by without taking advantage of it. How often could you ask a girl what she liked without really asking her?

“Oh, really? And what do you, as Jadzia, think of that? I mean, is it different for you? Well, obviously it’s different, since you’re a female, but -”

Dax felt herself smiling again. It was good to reminisce sometimes. But even more than that, she had a feeling that this question was really important to Holmes.
“Well, I suppose that Jadzia would have empathy for somebody like Tobin.”

Dax had the distinct feeling that Holmes was very much like Tobin. A little more refined and with a different brand of intelligence, but the anxiety… That was the same. She wouldn’t have picked it out if she had lived through it herself in a manner of speaking.
I can’t help him unless he asks. Or maybe that’s why he’s here. I’ve never been a doctor, but I can see that he’s got something going on with him right now. Maybe he just needs company? I’ll have to ask Julian tomorrow.
Dax wouldn’t have objected to the company of the young ensign anyway. He was a genuinely good hearted man in as he had said himself he wasn’t in it for the awards or the fame.
“How about a drink?” Jadzia asked.

Dan felt some self blushing in spite of himself. He wondered if her question was one of those situations where he was supposed to read between the lines. How the hell was he supposed to know? He and Tobin, apparently were two peas in a pod in that what they knew about women could be described on the head of a self-sealing stem bolt.
Then again, what did he care how she meant that? Whether she was being friendly or hinting it something else, Dan knew he would enjoy her company. So why split hairs and risk alienating her?
He was closer to the replicator, so he walked the short distance over, then glanced back toward Dax.

“What would you like?”

“Well, I’m on duty, so…raktajino.”

Holmes nodded approvingly. Being the straight arrow he was, he would have lowered his opinion of Dax if she had wanted synthehol. So he ordered a raktajino for her, and one for himself, too, since he’d been pledging to try that drink (since just now finding out that she liked it).

“Here you go.”
Holmes set her drink down on one of the workstations nearby. He chose a chair that was close enough for conversation, but far enough away to give her privacy, if she so desired. If not, well, he could move closer. She hadn’t seemed to be doing anything in particular when he’d come in, except relaxing. That very fact made him feel guilty for lying.

(Looks impatient) weren't you going to ascertain for yourself that I lacked the anatomical bit you were referring to?

Wow, congrats early! Which lucky number?

Lol you've shared this with me before. Still a good read.

Oh, sorry! (Bends down) Huh. So that's a woman's kneecap, huh?

23 this time. Blagh. It'll suck as much as 22 I bet.

I did? There are two that are like this. I thought I shared the other one. (Shrug) Oh well.

(Gently knees you in the forehead) I'm beginning to think I have a list cause on my hands.

I'll have to write/draw you something special then!!

(Points to self) Semi-photographic memory. Sure does come in handy sometimes.