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Yeah. It's a really good thing that sleep is over rated! I found out you can't do so when in this state. It's just not possible. So instead i've spent that time trying to at least make myself passable in public. I managed to stop the pacing, but gained uncontrolable trembling instead. As for how Keiko can help I'm not sure. She always tells me that it has been proven younger females can somehow calm an older male down. I HOPE that's true. Anyway. Yeah. I will say I was right. It isn't done getting stronger! I'm losing my mind it's getting so strong!

Well it does help me a little bit, thanks for your concern. Are you going into university?

Well i do have some ideas, likes a games graphic designer like you, a web designer, interactive media designer and an advert designer. But the prtoblem is i have no idea about how to go about getting them. My careers advisor told me that the easiest way to get a job like that was to go to university, but i can't afford the expenses for one thing, and i don't wanna spend that time away from home. Heck, i didn't even last two weeks when i was away in spain with a friend.

How are you gonna get the job you want

Brilliant comparison mate! (growling laugh) It fits perfectly. I wouldn't have thought of that. But brillian! Anyway. Yeah. My art is a bit more covert than marching in ranks. Anyway. Yeah. I've been having to stop myself from hyperventalating about every ten min. Yeah. This is not fun and what's worse is tomorrow I'll be in a very public place with hundreds of people. Hopefully I can keep it to a manic look in my eyes instead of how I fell now. Yeah. Even worse is (no worries she doesn't interest me in that way) Keiko gets to see me like this as well as KC. That will be awkward! Yeah. Not good and very very awkward. Not to mention Falconlobo keeps sending pics of couples which isn't helping any. Yeah. My friend I hope you never go through anything like this. Given the two I think I'll take an anxiety attack! Not to sound over dramatic, but it's the truth! (whimpers in misery) yeah. I'm glad your tolerant!

hi new arts up^^

Yeah. Def a big dif in the arts. Although regretfully like I said in my last comment one we sometimes have to follow. Anyway. Hey you think your art was strict with it's own. In ours he you have to sneeze and you might risk blowing a cover you get to die. Lol. A little extreme in my opinion. Anyway. I'll read that chapt here in a second. I'VE deem trying to meditate and yeah. It aint happening. Not enough focus! Now I wonder about reading the chapt? Uhh yeah. I'm def going to in insane if this lasts!

In reguards to our art which is what I thought you wanted it is as I stated in my last comment. In reguards to fighting ours is almost identicle to yours with the exception of that as cruel as it sounds we view that in light of upholding our secrecy sometimes elimination has to be used even if not prefered. It's sort of the we're sorry but you know to much and we don't want to but your to nosey so you must be eliminated. Yeah. One of the downfalls of an art that requires secrecy to function in a region. Anyway. I LOOK forward to your next chapt! It will give me more to focus on!

Let's hope that the size and quantity of the correctly placed stones out number and out size the wrong. There is always still time as long as he breaths. It isn't ended until he stops. Anyway. Yeah it always is a bit aggrivating when some one draws what you are working on. Anyway. I look forward to your next chapter now as always! Anyway. If you mean what do I teach them is my philosophy. I teach them that although we may be servants to our clan and art we are also servants to ourselves. We must strive to not only put forth our all in serving our mission but we must do our all for ourselves as well. I Stress upholding their nindo, lives, honor and the honor of others. I don't force missions that a person doesn't agree with. They are able to decline with a valid reason. Is that what you were wondering? Oh and right now you are keeping me from losing it seriously!

Our arts may have different views, but their logic is pretty similar. Lol. I figured I would send your concern back in matching observation. Anyway. You may not change him on your own. But it isn't a lost cause. You can convince more people to become stones or make yourself a bigger stone. You have the control as to whether your a pebble or a boulder. Anyway. Your right there is no one right answer. And yeah. I DEF teach that they are more than tools. They are cogs yes, but they are not something to work til they drop and then discard.

Well mate. A single stone takes along time to change the course of a strongly set current, but remove that stone and the course will never change. You may not see a change from your presence in his life, but you make a dif even if it takes years. You are changing his course even if only by a little. Anyway. As for my art. I NEVER much agreed with their take on it's students. I HATE having to use people, but sometimes it is necessary. Anyway. We are trained that we are born to serve our art and we are to do or die trying to. Yeah. I teach a bit dif.